The Goings on
Thursday, December 05, 2013
I have not blogged in a long time...There really is not much to blog about. Still dealing with shoulder pain and have not yet made an appointment with the surgeon. I would be seriously surprised if the MRSA colonizing in my nostrils is gone now. I need to find out if he will go ahead and operate despite that. That too, would surprise me. But first I need to take care of my eyes. I've been going to an ophthalmologist every month for the past three months. He thinks I have glaucoma which scares me...I do not want to lose my sight...I can't imagine how awful that would be. The eye doc wants to do one more test and then is talking about doing laser surgery on my eyes to put some ducts in to alleviate the pressure in my eyes. Because my husband is an employee of a major medical center in NY, we have to have EVERYTHING done in the hospital...even minor laser surgery. I also need to make an appointment to get an epidural in my SI joints. That, too, has to be done in the OR at the hospital. I do not have the money for all this stuff.... Nor do I have the patience for it...and for all of the appointments before and after these procedures. The price of my copays is doubling this coming year ...which means instead of 125 a month I will have to pay $250 a month and my medicines are rising also.
I just want to back out of all of this stuff ...let 's play PRETEND. Let's pretend I have a normal pain free body. OK? I keep ignoring the pain in my shoulders hoping somehow that it will go away. I was hoping that the ACTEMRA (the IV med I'm getting for my RA and PsA and Sj) would be effective in dealing with all these conditions and that I would be able to avoid surgery -- at least for a while. Right now, I would say that the ACtemra IS helping to some degree....at the end of the month...about three weeks following my infusion, the pain escalates (Just to remind me it's there).
This month the Actemra made me very sick to my stomach. I had horrible diarrhea and cramps. Fortunately that only lasted for one day and night.
I know this is turning out to be more like a medical log rather than a blog about food. Right now all of these issues supersede the battle to lose weight. My weight seems to be slowly going back down following my month of steroids....the swelling is down in my stomach and my chipmunk cheeks ---I think they are unchanged. Oh well, in time I guess they will recede.
I've thought of trying to exercise on the bike. I know that the first week on the bike will be tough...I will be lucky to make it through five minutes.
My computer is on the fritz also. I had dropped it and cracked the case and then the power plug wasn't making contact because it had been pushed inside the case. I sincerely hope that this will fix the problem. So for now, I have been borrowing my daughter's computer which is a less than optimal solution.
I have pretty much decided not to decorate for Christmas. I know this disappoints my daughter, but I just don't have the energy to drag all the boxes out and decorate. Also My husband knocked into on of the boxes in the garage and it fell and many ornaments were smashed. I haven't looked in the box to see which ones I'd lost. I know it will be heart breaking to see which ones are broken...so part of my reluctance is denial. This is the first year I've totally skipped decorating...although in the past two or three years, each year has had less and less of the decorations out. ONe of the ladies in the RAD team said that she no longer decorates and neither does she feel guilty. I need to get beyond the guilt also.
Well, anyway...that's what's happening with me. I will try to be more regular in my posts.