What is ?

What is my priority? What is my goal? Why do I feel this way? What am I going to do about it?

I have put myself last most of my life. First, the kids, my husband,my grandchildren, my parents, but never myself. I need to take care of me if I am to be able to continue taking care of others. Cardiology appointment Monday, upper GI and colonoscopy come the 9th, root canal the 7th, back to walking and eating properly TODAY. I need to find out what is causing this anemia and to get my heart checkup that I skipped last year. Reminding myself to actually talk and question the doctor instead of being passive when there.

I want to lose the extra 30 or so pounds that are clinging on for dear life. I have been working at this for the last two years and have had some success but some back flow also. I lost 30 then gained 15 and now back to losing it permanently.

I just can't seem to analyze the reason for the feelings I get. Sitting around Saturday night thinking I had better go eat that cake before I go to bed before it is gone. I wasn't hungry, I have never really been without food to cause me to need to eat, I am a very happy person, I really don't have stress. Why do I do this thing of eating, one bite cannot be done. I have to continue to eat and eat and eat. I have an addiction to food.

So, walking at least 5 times a week, ST at least 3 times a week, eating within my calorie range every day, and eating healthy foods that are as organic as I can grown them, as little GMO as possible, as high nutrient as I can get forever is the items on my path to being more healthy. That has got to be my top priority for ME. At my age, with my health issues and hereditary traits, I have to begin to really take care of me to give me more years with my family and be able to be the strong one for all of them. I am the rock that will be needed by the others so will need to be strong physically to be that rock.