Day 1:Living and Healing me
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
I feel like I've had this conversation with you guys before and it's almost disheartening. Disheartening because I've gone through this phase so many times before. Almost because I've been through so much in the past few months that it's completely changed me. I am a completely different person. I've been in and out of the hospital all of 2013 and it just dawned me that I really need to make a change. I need to change for me. So here are 3 reasons why this change starts now and I really hope you guys and gals will take this journey with me.
The first thing is that I was hospitalized and diagnosed with Bipolar disorder this year. Living with a mental illness is a experience that you can't even imagine unless you live with it. But I'm taking one day at a time and learning to live with myself and for myself.
The second thing is that I am 152 pounds! I am 5'2'' and 152 pounds and that is not okay. Even worse is that the medication I'm on is making it worse. The pills cause weight gain. Neither of these things are okay. And if I don't change, than I'm going to loose control which brings me to the last point.
I'm an adult now. I am 19 years old. I will be moving out soon and I just finished my first semester in college. I'm accountable for me now. Every big decision now has to come from me. I have to take care of me now. It's scary, oh so very scary but it's the truth. So I need to start taking care of me.
Well that's all for right now I just needed to get that off my chest. Got my 10 minute work out today so that was good. I feel good. Now I'm ready to pray and get refreshed for tomorrows adventures. Until then good night, sleep well, and God bless.