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Saturday, January 04, 2014

This may sound really odd but I have a strange problem and wonder if it is just me or if it is just part of the lifestyle change. I am sticking to this. I loved pizza but frankly it had been giving me heartburn EVERY SINGLE time I ate it for the last two years or so. Tonight I was offered pizza for dinner, I turned it down for amazing leftovers. WHY THEN am I feeling REALLY sad and "hungry" tonight, when I am NOT hungry and had a pretty good day? I think I am actually feeling sorry for myself!

Not ME exactly, but the old me from 3 months ago. Food was my best friend. It was there when no one else was, it knew how I felt and we had a lot of good times together. I still enjoy food I have just discovered the food I truly like. Instead of ice cream I eat frozen banana's, instead of soda I drink water with lemon, lime or a tiny bit of orange juice. I refuse to bow down to that feeling. I haven't walked the last two days due to being a bit under the weather, perhaps that also has something to do with the way I am feeling.

I used to be really flexible, I loved change, as I have gotten older I don't like change that much and perhaps that is part of what is bugging me tonight. So what am I doing about it, you ask? Eating a salad with salsa for dressing, writing this oh woe is me blog entry and ready to read other blogs and become inspired and shut that brat up! Lol! More in a few days!
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  • EJB2801
    I'm also experiencing feelings of fake deprivation. I've been trying to drink a hot beverage or warm "comfort" water to quiet the digestive/mental yearnings. I've discovered that I am sometimes rather petulant about my nutritionally bad "goodies!" It's been an eye opener necessitating more honesty about why I have so much extra poundage. I do feel sheepish about the aspects I could have controlled but attributed to bigger issues. Time for me to act on this!
    2397 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14015082
    I know the feeling. I am full ...i had a healthy meal and i too want pizza. I refuse to order it though. Sometimes it is just boredom that gets to us and sometimes the old way we ate comes back to tempt us. Stay strong and remember it makes you feel ill afterwards emoticon
    2403 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/4/2014 6:58:55 PM
    oh i understand your frustration. sometimes i get angry because i really want the foods i know are bad, specifically cheese and all forms of bread. i mean, there's an attachment to food that i don't think will ever be broken regardless of the progress we make. however, you recognized the feeling and directed that toward a healthy alternative which will result in a positive outcome of feeling good about yourself, developing a healthy lifestyle and dropping emotional weight, which, at times, is more than the physical. way to go.
    2403 days ago
    What a great blog. You are handling your feelings in a positive, moving forward way.

    It's understandable how you feel, after all, you are breaking up with your old self. All changes, even when positive are stressful and can make us sad.

    Congratulations on your accomplishments today!

    2403 days ago
  • SUNSET09
    You have entered your lifestyle change by identifying your feelings, why you eat and overcame the objective. What taste of the pizza do you like and feel that you're missing. I love your substitutes! Also like PICKIE09 pizza substitute idea. My luch and dinner meals consists of salads actually half of my plate! Oh, yeah! emoticon emoticon emoticon in 2014 emoticon One day at a time!
    2404 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Emotions are very real in how we perceive food, people, sex, our environment. Even though you ate an alternative, your inner self, the old emotions, may be telling you that you "went without," deprived yourself of that pizza. It is high carb and what you ate may not have had a lot of protein, staying power. A combo of things maybe..

    It is a Sparky thing that you recognized this!! Growth!!
    If you think you will feel deprived, maybe an English muffin with some sauce and a sprinkle of mozzarella on it WITH your meal or just before...?

    I just saw a pic of a fellow Sparker the other day:she was holding up a ten pound bag of bagels and cream cheese, and a stack of pizza boxes, representing ten pounds she gained by eating it. She was illustrating how much weight she gained, then lost because of first, eating them, then stopping.
    She posted that this visual really helped her continue to resist temptations..She posted it near her phone(Ordering pizza?) and her fridge.. Cool,eh?
    2404 days ago
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