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Sunday, January 19, 2014

I have said before this is a learning experience and I am in it for the long haul. I am apparently bored with what I am doing right now. I believe what I will begin to do, is try different "diet" programs when I get to this point. Because A) I am NOT giving in to my boredom and B) I know this will happen again! This is life, this is my life! I get bored easy and move on to something else, well guess what? That may have happened in the past but I REFUSE to let it happen NOW! I am down over 30 pounds!

I think I will now try actually cooking and fixing fresh Asian and Mexican food, I LOVE bold FRESH flavors, I am crazy about cilantro and fresh herbs and vegetables in general so this should be doable. I have weeks coming up where I will be working 12 hours a day so I will cook on days off and freezing, not exactly fresh, but freshly frozen! Lol! I am just going to try different things and try not to obsess I think I am doing so this week! I can't get off this site!

I think if I could sleep 8 hours in one night my whole attitude will be back to normal. I have been lucky to get 3 most nights. Got a bit more last night, but that was with help...I want to sleep with out having to take something or drink something. I have had insomnia my entire life! I remember fighting naps growing up. I would have to lay quietly while my Mom watched Perry Mason at noon every day, when I heard the music at the end I could get up and I did every day, I have no idea how many nights I have laid awake all night long!

Wow! Look at the above paragraph! Funny how writing things down will sometimes let you know exactly why you are feeling the way you are! I think I am frustrated that I actually had a drink 3 times this week, to help me sleep. I have family members who have had drinking problems in the past and I don't want to ever be like that, I don't want to need meds or a drink to do what MOST people do naturally. I know I don't have a problem but the knowledge that other family member have, just slaps me in the face when I sink to that level. I can honestly say that in the past week, I may have had 12 hours sleep IF I am lucky! So it makes eating wisely and moving more very hard, my muscles that have worked out just lay there not really relaxed all night long and they don't have the recovery time that most people get when they are sleeping.

Yes I am whining, but I can do so in my blog! Lol!!
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    You can do it! emoticon
    2375 days ago
    Hope you find a solution to your insomnia soon. I have trouble falling asleep and for years I had restless leg syndrome that kept me from getting restful sleep. I now take magnesium supplements that have gotten rid of the resltless legs. Keep up the positive attitude and looking for answers. emoticon
    2386 days ago
    Excellent Attitude! You can do it!
    2386 days ago
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    2387 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13319341
    I love your blogs!! I feel as though u r writing my own thoughts!!!
    2387 days ago
    Hey Lisa--I like that you're writing things down (blogging) & that you're basically creating your own feedback & "seeing" things in a way you can't "see" it when it's just rolling around in your brain. And I don't care who you are...mixing it up with the cooking & trying new things is ALWAYS a good idea. Yes, there are some folks who can eat brown rice, broccolli & broiled chicken for 2 years...but really not very many. And if changing up your food plan helps you LONG TERM then it's a great tool & keep at it.

    Next post from you should be...My best Friend is ME!!! emoticon
    2387 days ago
  • no profile photo ROXYCARIN
    2389 days ago
  • EJB2801
    Sounds like OZARKMARY has some interesting advice. I can so relate to remembering fighting naps and other issues with childhood insomnia! Did you already do the Better Sleep Challenge? I have done some of it, and I need to get busy and finish it out. I have to say that when sleep does come, it feels sooo good. For me that seems to only happen easily when I do not have to get out the door at a certain time the next day. Thankfully my $$ work usually starts in the afternoon now, and that has helped. I'm a night owl, and my husband is not, plus he starts work at 5 am. When we married, I tried valiantly to reform. Once the kids were born, we kind of spelled each other off and moved back to mostly opposite sleep schedules. Well, now I am rambling. I will be interested in whether or not you try to melatonin or find some ways out of sleep troubles.
    2389 days ago
    You have a good understanding of YOUR needs. Sleep is imperative to feeling well. After a surgery my sleep pattern went wacky. I got about 2-3 hrs at a time. I would wake, watch tv, read, pray then go back to sleep for awhile. My solution was a melatonin tablet. Check into it. Got mine at a health food store. It is non-habit forming, safe and inexpensive. I had to take the one tablet two nights before it worked. I continued for several nights then stopped taking the pill and continued to have good solid sleep. IF I woke to potty, I felt a little groggy but went right to sleep and woke in 7-8 hrs. You must allow yourself that much time to sleep. No going to bed at midnight when you need to be up by 6am. Best wishes to you. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2389 days ago
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