Back to where I was...

I have to be honest, I have been weighing myself almost daily even though I wasn't on Spark People, and I thought I could manage my weight without tracking anything. After all, I had lost over 70 lbs, right? I knew what I was doing right and where I had gone wrong... As long as I made sure the number on the scale wasn't going up too much, I could make minor adjustments and get back to where I had been without actually logging everything... Right?

WRONG!!!

After everything that has happened this last six months (divorce, move, best friend's cross-country move, sick dog), I am basically back where I started when I had to reset my numbers because my scale was off back in April. I have been weighing myself, and watching the number slowly climb. I kept telling myself that as long as if fluxed down, too, I wouldn't worry about the up days. I am up more than 10 lbs now. I haven't been working out like I should (partly because of time and energy, partly because I didn't have to track it, so I lost track of how long it had been) and I haven't been eating the best (again, due to time and energy, or lack thereof).

I did get in 2 workouts this week, with a possible third tomorrow. And I have started tracking my food again, even though I am not being as careful about sticking to my range as I could be. Hopefully, as I see myself way outside my ranges, and start holding myself accountable to at least logging in and tracking my food, my motivation to get in workouts will increase and the rest of the crap in life will decrease.

But I am bound and determined NOT to regain any more of the weight I lost. I was basically at goal weight, and now I have to lose that last 10+ lbs all over again. I am not a happy camper, but I am NOT going to go further down the rabbit hole. I realize that tracking on SparkPeople, and the support I get on here is invaluable to maintaining a healthy weight and lifestyle. I am sparking again, and I have the support of my household and all my wonderful SparkBuddies to get me through. So, THANK YOU ALL for welcoming me back and being supportive the last couple of days.