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Lookin' for the Lovely

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Yesterday I found out that I'd won a free hour long session with a life coach. She has a blog I follow online and recently held a contest to win an hour long session with her.

Here is something I was thinking about this AM sparked by a blog I read here:

I struggled recently --thinking, "Maybe this is just the way I am....and possibly the way I"m going to be." I am frequently on high doses of steroids and every bout with steroids is good for a 5-20 pound weight gain....Maybe I cannot control that. Maybe the best I can hope for is to relose the new weight gained after the last round of steroids....that way I can avoid morbid obesity and just stay at "obese"....Do I want that? no. But I've got to get to the point where I stop hating myself for something that is beyond my control....

It's okay to be on a journey. But we can really miss a lot of beautiful scenery and joy if all we can think about is the "are we there yet??" question children ask. Maybe that is a sign of emotional immaturity. Maybe someone who has been around the block a few times knows that there is something to be said for finding happiness where ever it is you are.

It is not "settling" and sabotaging my weight loss. I will continue the journey whether or not I lose weight. I must celebrate the small gains (losses) and find joy in the fact that I can get a size smaller pants on. Chances are good (for me, due to medical issues) that that victory will be short lived. But that doesn't mean that I should condemn myself or give up.

I need to get to the point where I'm okay NO MATTER WHAT THE SCALE SAYS. The scale should NOT have the power to drain the beauty and joy out of my day. Just like a passing cloud covering the sun for a minute does not ruin a nice day....neither should my weight for that day matter or be given power it should not have. I am a person, created by God, given challenges such as poor health and excess weight but also given many other benefits and blessings....THESE should be my focus.
Here is a verse that says it all:'

Philippians 4:8
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Look for the Lovely. Look in the MIRROR for the lovely!
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    hang in there! emoticon
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    2392 days ago
    Good blog.
    2395 days ago
  • _LINDA
    emoticon We can't help what our bodies are doing to us. We do have to do the best we can with what we were given. Treat your body well and hopefully it will give back the best it can.. You have a great attitude you never give in and keep fighting to the bitter end! Don't forget I will always be here cheering you on and thinking of you!
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    2397 days ago
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    Ohh Cynthia!.
    .Congratulations on winning a life coach .. it will be great for you.
    As a fellow sufferer of the effects of Prenisolone .. I so agree with your conclusion that we need to accept this fluctuation in weight ..
    I have been struggling with this for years as I guess you have. I am down to a acceptable weight .. But realise it will go up when I need a course of the pesky but life saving drugs ..
    I have been a asthmatic all my life .. My weight has been a roller coaster too.
    I have mainly come to terms that I will never be as svelt as I was when I was younger and modelling ..
    But I have come to terms with this and have accepted it will never change .. I need to live my life without the constant worry and anxiety about my weight ..
    I love the me I am ..and what I have achieved ..
    Sending you love and healthy vibes my dear friend ..
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    2397 days ago
    Congrats on winning the session with the life coach!

    I think you should show them what you have written here, you have some great ideas, and the life coach can help you build on that.
    2397 days ago
    Great blog! Love the Philippians verse.

    I really believe that being negative is not helpful. "A hammer is not a spiritual tool."

    You are right that making good choices to improve your health is the right way. And give yourself small, non-junk-food, rewards when you do the right thing. Keep in mind how many health problems you are avoiding by keeping your weight as healthy as you can.

    When I carry something weighing 20 lbs., e.g. cat litter, I think of how much harder my life would be carrying the weight I used to. I don't know how I could walk anywhere with 60 extra lbs. to haul everywhere.

    I like the short daily readings in the book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. They put the days problems into a God-reliant context. You can see samples online with Amazon's "Look Inside."

    God bless you.
    2398 days ago
    Look for the lovely is a great outlook. Taking daily prednisone and a recent cortisone, my sugar appetite soared. I am fighting back with food tracking and drinking water. I know comfort food is a way I mask daily pain. We have a daily fight. Take care. Hugs, Laurel emoticon
    2398 days ago
  • PGHP31CK
    Cynthia, thank you for sharing this! You're right -- the scale shouldn't (and doesn't!)define who we are, or how we value ourselves.

    Keep celebrating the victories, keep looking for the lovely, true, honest, just, and pure, and keep remembering that those things ARE in you!

    Cheering you on!
    2398 days ago
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