So I've been thinking about telling my story, just for myself if no one else, so here it is.
I've been struggling with my weight for years. I have yo-yo'd terribly and knew that was extremely unhealthy. Everytime I would lose weight and be down where I needed to be, I would gain it back and then some. I have done a lot of different weight loss programs. I've fasted for 40 days, (so unhealthy - don't do that.) I've done weight watchers and was even a leader. However, the way Weight watchers makes their money is on people losing weight not keeping it off. The classes were fun, but nobody sticks with it once they've lost their weight. I didn't, and I was a leader. I lost a lot when I went to Moldova for 5 years, but that was because I had to walk up 20 flights of stairs every day, not because I changed my eating habits.
When I got back to the states, I had already started gaining. I'm a huge emotional eater, and since I was divorced, had no reason I felt to keep it off. I wasn't married, so I didn't need to keep it off for a husband. (I know that this is illogical and I should have been doing it for me, but that wasn't even on my radar.)
I went for years getting heavier and heavier. I reached 220. Another thing that happened when I got back into the states, was I became sedentary. I became and still am a real home body. (It might be because I was gone from the states for so long.)
At any rate, I was losing weight, but didn't realize it. My daughter noticed it and said something, but I didn't weigh myself. The last time I did, I was 220, like I said. I started to notice in May that I was having difficulty with my feet and eyes. Talking to my daughter, she said, that is symptoms of diabetes 2. My grandmother had diabetes when she was older, and I remember as a kid and as I got older it was always in the back of my mind. I kept checking online for the symptoms and I never had any of the ones that were listed, so I was sure I didn't have it. Well, since I don't have health insurance, I went to one of the minute clinics and found out that my glucose was 287. The doctor said I needed to get to a doctor soon. I talked to a friend that had it also, and she suggested the University Health system. I was 208lbs when I went so I had lost weight. Found out I did have diabetes. I knew right then and there I was going to lose the weight. I had too. My A1C was 10. So with God's help, and my daughter giving me the site for Spark People (She had at one time before, but I ignored it.) I was on my way to lose.
Not only was my glucose high, but my cholesterol and blood pressure was high too. I know that I could very well have had a stroke or heart attack, or any of the other complications that come with diabetes. I have to say that I had a real wake up call, and praise the Lord that I didn't have those complications.
So since May I've been exercising regularly, and have change the way I eat. It's not just a diet to me this time, it is a way of life. I no longer sit and eat away my emotions. When I'm upset, I exercise. I have lost 54 lbs, and would like to lose at least 11 more, but time will tell if I can lose it. I have my ups and down when it comes to exercise. Right now, my motivation is kind of low. I have been trying to figure out what else to do, but I may join the Y. I have to decide if I want to pay the money.
The following are the before and after pictures.
Me at 220lbs
Me at 170 -
Me at 154