Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Ok it's Tuesday and although I had every intention of spending yesterday bathing in SPARK like behavior, I ended up with the PMS monster that started small and man she GREW UGLY and by the end of the day she was a raving lunatic!
I ended up on the porch with beer and burgers and no gym...
It did NOT turn out well!
Today I woke up to a new day but the PMS Monster she was NOT letting go, man that girl is a NEGATIVE NELLY who really eats at my self esteem, my positive outlook and any happy thoughts I hold. She hung on to me TIGHT all day long and by the end of today I was sooooooooooooooo DONE! I did manage to eat properly throughout the day though and not stuff my face with the nice big tupperware of chocolate chip cookies that is in the freezer.
My last client left and It was all I could do to drag my sorry miserable grumpy negative ass to the gym....BUT I DID!
I spend 85 minutes in the gym where all I did was PUSH HARD, SWEAT like a running faucet and EMPTY my mind of anything but form and pushing harder.
I can feel the monster sitting down deep but she has been push back and is at bay at the moment. I am going BACK to the gym tomorrow afternoon to do it again because I NEED It.
I Need it MENTALLY as well as Physically. I can not skip the gym, I NEED the Gym... It MUST REMAIN a part of my weekly routine at least 4 times. I MUST make the effort in order to keep sane. I really must!