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Wow, 1st blog in a year.....

Monday, July 07, 2014

I hadn't realized it has been so long since I've posted a blog. 2013 was a tough year for our family. We had a lot of change and a lot of struggles. As the year came to a close...all I kept saying was "I can't WAIT for 2013 to be over....... bring on 2014, it's got to be better!"

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I was wrong.

2014 can be worse. And it has been worse...and it still keeps getting worse.

We've already dealt with medical issues & my father-in-law passing away..... and now it looks like my wonderful airforce hubby will be deploying for the first time since we've been together (that's almost 10 years!) . It's not his first deployment, but it is "my" first deployment.
And while I'm thankful that we've made it 10 years before it happened......I'm still having a hard time wrapping my brain around him REALLY being gone for half a year.
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Right now my brain is swirling with trying to make lists and learning everything I need to know....what I need to do...all of those man-things he does.....all the things I never give a second thought to.....
I know this is going to sound weird, but I told him....don't get mad but I have to pretend that you are never coming back. I need to know everything I need to do if you don't come back. That's the only way my slightly OCD brain can do this. I will completely stress myself out if I don't have as much info as possible. A big binder full of info is the only way I will sleep at night.

And while he's fine with that, getting him to do it and not waiting until the last minute is a completely different story. I pointed out that I'm not on the cable account, or the phone account, or his credit card......what if weird charges show up on it??? If I'm not authorized they're not even going to talk to me! His response? Oh, huh....yeah I guess....

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So, that's what's going on......it's the condensed version. No need to drag it all out. Hopefully, things will get better and I'll be able to keep my spirits up.
One good thing is that one of my daughters has moved back into our house while she's attending university and one of my other daughters is moving in for the summer. So, at least there's some laughter and silliness coming from them. They're great company and I'm so blessed to have them so close.
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Hopefully, I can find a few minutes here and there to get back on Spark (yes, I KNOW I keep saying that......lol)
Have a wonderful week!
Melissa
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  • GIRANIMAL
    Oh, Melissa! I knew there had to be very good reasons you'd become so scarce (not that I haven't been too) and I'm so so so sorry to learn them! My condolences about your father-in-law, and I just can't imagine facing your husband's deployment. emoticon

    I'm glad to know your girls will be back home for some time though - that definitely has to help.

    I've missed you! How are you feeling these days? What's going on in your employment world now?

    I've just been sort of hanging around, status quo-ing it up these days. emoticon Still biking but haven't kicked up my other workouts so I'm just sorta sitting with the 15 pounds I gained back. Still strictly GF and DF, and at least my gut is a lot happier than it used to be for it. How about you?

    Let's catch up! emoticon ~ Angie
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    Comment edited on: 7/7/2014 10:53:02 AM
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  • NISSANGIRL
    So sorry girl, hope he does not wait till the last minute and try to do everything. Some men are procrastinators , he is probably trying to adjust to the idea of leaving as well. Glad your daughter will be with u. Good luck. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • KENDERSONNN
    WOW. It seems as if you are dealing with an incredible amount of stress. You are a very strong person to be dealing with all of this, instead of waiting until last minute!! I hope you receive a lot of support from your loved ones and I hope the next 6-12 months become easier for you!!

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