I hadn't realized it has been so long since I've posted a blog. 2013 was a tough year for our family. We had a lot of change and a lot of struggles. As the year came to a close...all I kept saying was "I can't WAIT for 2013 to be over....... bring on 2014, it's got to be better!"
I was wrong.
2014 can be worse. And it has been worse...and it still keeps getting worse.
We've already dealt with medical issues & my father-in-law passing away..... and now it looks like my wonderful airforce hubby will be deploying for the first time since we've been together (that's almost 10 years!) . It's not his first deployment, but it is "my" first deployment.
And while I'm thankful that we've made it 10 years before it happened......I'm still having a hard time wrapping my brain around him REALLY being gone for half a year.
Right now my brain is swirling with trying to make lists and learning everything I need to know....what I need to do...all of those man-things he does.....all the things I never give a second thought to.....
I know this is going to sound weird, but I told him....don't get mad but I have to pretend that you are never coming back. I need to know everything I need to do if you don't come back. That's the only way my slightly OCD brain can do this. I will completely stress myself out if I don't have as much info as possible. A big binder full of info is the only way I will sleep at night.
And while he's fine with that, getting him to do it and not waiting until the last minute is a completely different story. I pointed out that I'm not on the cable account, or the phone account, or his credit card......what if weird charges show up on it??? If I'm not authorized they're not even going to talk to me! His response? Oh, huh....yeah I guess....
So, that's what's going on......it's the condensed version. No need to drag it all out. Hopefully, things will get better and I'll be able to keep my spirits up.
One good thing is that one of my daughters has moved back into our house while she's attending university and one of my other daughters is moving in for the summer. So, at least there's some laughter and silliness coming from them. They're great company and I'm so blessed to have them so close.
Hopefully, I can find a few minutes here and there to get back on Spark (yes, I KNOW I keep saying that......lol)
Have a wonderful week!