Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Time to hit the pause button on my 100 Days of Exercise.
I'm depressed and my anxiety is acting up. I know that working out usually helps, but working out when you are depressed is not easy. So talking about doing it and then if I'm not able to do it adds to my stress, adding to my depression. So it doesn't seem right to keep on my 100 Days of Exercise if I am not exercising. I'm NOT giving up, I'm taking a pause.
If this keeps up I'm going to get an appointment with my doctor, see if something needs adjusting. I don't like being like this. But I've had 8 months of no depression (not overly depressed anyway, just your normal) so it is frustrating to be depressed again. But I'm so thankful for the 8 months of being depression free!
I'm still going to try to get on and chat and blog, but not going to push myself. That will just wear me out and I've got enough going on without adding to it. I still have to put on a cheerful face for my girls and homeschool, and the rearranging of rooms isn't going to do itself. The house is in disarray because of my being depressed and unable to fully function for a couple of days. I always feel worse when the house looks awful, so "Clean ALL the things!"
Trying to do the things that cheer me or help me be peaceful. Made a loaf of bread that is about to go in the oven. I'm going to pull out my grown up coloring books (mostly mandalas some fantasy like dragons and such) and my coloring pencils and color with the kids for a while. If that doesn't work I'll take my chalk pastels and go outside and draw for a while. I'm not good at drawing, but I still enjoy it. I've got other things I do as well.
On a brighter note I found the cutest pattern for a crochet purse and splurged and bought it. I ordered the yarn and beads and it should come in by the end of the week! I imagine I'll be done with the purse sometime next week (I'll post a picture). In the meanwhile here is a picture of the one I tried making without a pattern. Totally wrong yarn for a purse and my color pattern is not so great. I think it is kinda cute and will make a great purse for my youngest daughter when I'm finished with it.