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My Memoir

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Well, my goal for four years has been to complete my memoir. And a couple of weeks ago my dream was realized. Treasures from Darkness is available at Amazon and Barnes and Nobel. (search for Cynthia Lott Vogel, books and you will find it). I am very proud of the book and have gotten wonderful reports of people who've read and enjoyed it.

I could not afford to pay an editor and there are a couple of typos so I beg your patience with that. They are minor and not that numerous.

I've begun working on my next book which is a devotional for the chronically ill and their spouses. Writing it is the fun part....editing, finding an agent , correcting proofs and galleys and marketing all pretty much suck. I have tons of articles on my computer but have not gotten up the nerve to find publishers. I need an assistant!

As far as eating well? no. I've been eating frozen dinners or leftovers from take out. I cannot cook anymore. I have been diagnosed with peripherall neuropathy from the Sjogrens and also with two pinched off nerves which are encroached upon by my RA in my spine. So whenever I stand for more than a minute or two I get excruciating leg pain and my legs and arms go numb. I'm lucky if I can heat up soup.

Today I tried my best to do ten minutes with arm weights (2 measly pounds) and could only make it for 6 or 7 minutes with a rest in the middle. I am so discouraged about my body. Yesterday my daughter's boyfriend took a picture of me to use at my book signing. I haven't had a pic taken in a LONG time for obvious reasons.

I'm back on the steroids so will probably gain even more. Really it tempts me to give up trying to lose weight. I haven't lost any significant weight since last December when I lost 30 lbs doing the Fuhrman eating plan....however it was too
hard to maintain the effort of the complicated recipes and I quit ...and gained all the weight right back. I do not eat a lot. Rarely more than 1500 calories in a day. And yet here I am. Huge. I also take psych meds that cause weight gain. I feel like it's a losing battle. I know I cannot be completely sedentary. If I am I will be wheelchair bound very soon ....and my house would be an impassable obstacle. It is not made for wheelchairs and it cannot be adapted. (we had engineers in a while ago...to see about a stair seat or an elevator or a ramp outside....and not a single thing was possible. WE bought the houses at the worst possible time and now wee are stuck with very little equity and a terrible housing market in our development.

I can't think about it. It's too upsetting.

Anyway...I'm trying ...I keep the weights next to my recliner and when I''m sitting here, I lift them in various ways. would love to trim down some triceps.

Any way that's all the news that's fit to report.
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    You continue to amaze and inspire me. You keep on keeping on despite the obstacles. I truly understand. So glad you got the book out!!! (next time, check with me, I can help you with the editing).
    Love and hugs, Deb
    2144 days ago
    Congratulations on your book becoming a published reality! Very nice photo... beautiful smile, nice hair, nice pose, stylish outfit, nice setting.

    I love the idea for the devotional book!!! Sounds like a bestseller to me. My son made his Confirmation today and I read from one daily devotional book at grace before the meal, which was well received, and gave him a devotional book for kids as a gift.

    So sorry you have so much pain and limited movement. Just keep taking care of yourself and your health as best you can. There are some good light soups out there and some frozen meals not too high in sodium. Keep doing what you can, with God's help, day by day. God bless you
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    2159 days ago
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    Congratulations on your book! It is awesome you are still physically capable of such prolific writing. I get tired really quick of my one finger plonking away.
    Wishing you all kinds of success with the writings.
    Good for you using the weights -2 is all I can use and in only one hand of course. Every little bit helps!
    I like your photo as well -you look so young!!
    Feel better soon,
    {{{gentle hugs}}}
    2159 days ago
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    Good for you and I love your new photo. You are a beautiful lady with your vibrant smile! I wish that I had a magic wand for all your pain, but I can think of you often with hugs in my heart for you and I do that for sure. emoticon emoticon
    2159 days ago
    Congratulations on your book! I am so sorry for all the health issues you are experiencing. Beautiful picture!
    2160 days ago
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