I've got an appointment to see a surgeon "breast specialist" today. I'm still confused as to why. If my mammogram was okay, why do I need to see a specialist? I guess better safe than sorry? Makes me nervous when the doctor is inconsistent.
I've not been doing well with the whole working out and eating well thing. I've pretty much been eating whatever I want. And last week was my time of the month and I used that as an excuse not to work out. It's a good excuse, I felt awful, but still an excuse.
So yesterday I wrote down everything I ate and made sure it was in my calorie range. I'm done with the doctor's ridiculous restriction of 1 thousand calories. I'm not going to starve myself. and really that is what that is doing. I'm not going to eat the 6 small meals a day thing either, Most days I'm on the go and can't keep up with it. I am going to eat a breakfast, even if it is just a shake or yogurt. I am going to eat a light lunch, if I eat too many calories or a heavy food for lunch I get super tired. I'm going to cut off my sugar though. I've found that if I don't eat sweets I don't crave sweets. The most sugar I'm going to allow myself is the sugar in my coffee. Which is a real shame since I'm making a bunch of chocolate cakes today for the cake walk at church. I do have to taste to make sure it comes out right (the recipe is still somewhat new to me) but no more than a taste.
I overslept and didn't work out today, I've got an appointment this afternoon, so working out then is out. I have to start getting up on time again so I can work out at 0700 as scheduled! I'll feel so much better when I'm working out again, and when I'm getting up on time so I can do my reading and Bible study!! I can't believe October went by so fast!
I bought some vitamin gummies for myself. I take so many pills as is, I could not stand the thought of adding another one even for a vitamin. I take 6 capsules for Juice Plus (2 veggies, 2 fruits, 2 berries). Then there is all the other stuff I take. Gummy vitamins are really a great idea!! I'm so glad I found them!
I've not lost any weight yet, but the keyword there is yet. I can and will do this. I know how to do this. I just need to put it in motion. Put my money where my mouth is.
Winnie the Pooh is stuck in my head, "I am short, fat, and proud of that!" Makes me think of how I have loathed this extra weight, even ignored it at times. Now I think I've come to terms with it. I am what I am. I'm not happy about it, and so that is why I need to change. Buying some new clothes that actually look decent on me made a difference in how I feel. Also getting dressed nice and putting on makeup and fixing my hair every day has made a difference too. I just feel better. I've even painted my nails. Now if I could lose some weight!!
I've not been willing to put up with the rain, I keep going where it is comfy and warm instead of dealing with the rain, so I don't get the rainbow. The rain being getting out there and working out and eating right. But I'm getting there! I've stuck my big toe out and the rain is not too bad, so off I go! I can do this. I can get my rainbow!