Saturday, November 01, 2014
As I am up not being able to sleep I hear the rain. It is coming down real hard. We have gotten a lot of rain in the last 2 weeks. My joints are hurting some due to the rain. I also battle Seasonal Affective Disorder so the rain doesn't help any either. But with not being able to sleep and the rain I am trying real hard to look at the positive side of my life. I am still taking weight lifting class so I am getting a lot stronger. I so do like that. I am feeling better about my body. I have a weight lifting partner...she parks her bench and weights next to me each class. We have started a cardio session after class. I like the fact that she pushes me real hard. Her legs are longer than mine so I have to run more steps than her to keep up. We usually run 2 days a week...then I run the other 4 or 5. Her and I have plans to get together to make our own vision boards. I want to use mine to set goals for my healthy life style. So now I am in the process of collecting pictures and motivational sayings for my board. I am looking forward to doing this as I believe it's a good way to keep me motivated. It's crockpot season so I have been using it to make some really good healthy soups and stews. Beings that I live alone I make a big batch and freeze the rest in single serving containers. It makes my super busy life easier and I eat healthier that way and I like that. I signed up for another 6 week body makeover through bodybuilding.com. I love doing these challenges. This is the 3rd one I have done. I use it as motivation to get my body in better shape. I also hit the gym 2 days a week and use the weight machines. I have had people notice my muscles. That feels good. I went to the dr's about a week and go. I am in really good physical health. He gave me some sleeping pills to try for my insomnia. I didn't take one tonight as I had already taken my melatonin and it had been working just fine. The sleeping pills were if I had a really bad night. I just don't think it's ok to mix drugs like that.....never know how it could effect me. I figure I will get tired enough to go to sleep. I do know that I am also reacting to something from my bad childhood that is keeping me up. So when I chat with my therapist next this will be on the list of things to work on. I feel so good about how far I have come in this healthy life style. I am not that unhappy fat girl any more. I am amazed on how far I have come. I am so pleased. But with Jesus as my partner in this how could I go wrong.