On Sunday, 11/16 I started the 100 day challenge, I saw the video on Spark of the mother and daughter, and it inspired me. So for the next 100 days (I'm on Day 4), I will try to stay in my calorie range, workout for at least 10 minutes, get my freggies and water in. And I know I won't be perfect, but my goal is to be healthy.
(Ready to be inspired? Video of mother/daughter team here)
Well, I weigh myself mid-week, and with a 5 lb. gain last week due to TOM, I was hoping for a big loss since I'm on Day 4 (because everything happens overnight, right? lol).
Well, I lost 3 lb. from the 5 lbs. of water weight, however from my weight before that, I'm up 3 lbs. This was depressing. It reminded me why I didn't step on the scale for a few months. But for me, the scale is a necessary tool. I believe that without it is how I gained 15+ lbs., because I lost focus. Also I am frustrated because of the 2 yr. plateau I was in after losing 100 lbs....even during marathon training I didn't lose one pound. But I didn't expect the scale to go up. I think it's safe to say that I gave up. Thus, the 15-20 lb. weight gain.
Now, the scale does NOT define me. It's a tool. But it sure can make me feel bad.
But then I asked myself -- would I do this anyway, even if I never lost weight?
And the answer is a resounding YES.
I FEEL better when I'm healthy.
And health is the ultimate goal. Not a pants size (though I won't lie, that would be nice)....NOT a number on the scale....I am ME no matter what. But I want to be the BEST me, and what that looks like is someone who takes care of themself, who takes the time to get workouts in, who takes time to plan healthy meals, who takes time out with their family in a healthy way.
SO I am in it to fight.
And I am a walk leader, a running coach. This is the perfect opportunity to see what works for ME - yes, I lost over 100 lbs., 3 yrs. ago and kept it off for 3 yrs. I do remember what I did, but this is an OPPORTUNITY to REDISCOVER how to heal myself, how to motivate myself, and through that, I can relern how to motivate others -- everyone could use a refresher in that! And the injury to my back from running has me on the sidelines, so I'm only walking right now, and I am re-learning all of the benefits from that. It's a win/win. It's all in how we look at things. I am going to choose to look at the positive side. What's the alternative? Continue down the slope into depression, be back where I started 5 yrs. ago? No. That is NOT an option. I am choosing to love myself instead, as I am now, and making the changes necessary to transform myself.
I AM a super hero, I am my own super hero. We all need to motivate ourselves, and I am going to be the best cheerleader for myself. No negative self talk. Only positive vibes here.
And I know it will take time. And that is OK. Because it is ME time. Time spent well. And I am WORTH IT.