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Thursday, November 20, 2014

yesterday was hard. I went to NY to see a neurologist following some visual disturbances I've been having. And she didn't have good news. I left the office with a fist full of prescriptions for MRI, EMG and bloodwork....all to be done by next Wed. I don't drive and all of these tests are in NY plus on Monday I have a dentist appointment and I think I need a crown and maybe a root canal.

Can I quit now? Because I'm really so done with all of this stuff. And I confess.....I ate last night to comfort myself. CRAP. Enough to have put on at least a pound. I have promised myself not to weigh myself until a week has passed and I can get back on track.

Today I went grocery shopping and got a bunch of fruits and veggies. I got a big bag of brussel sprouts which I've avoided for my whole life but tried recently and found I like them!! YAY!! More options!!

I've still been having chest pain but I did notice that when I'm being "good" on the ETL plan, it is infrequent or non-existent. I'm not going to a cardiologist. They will want to do stress test and maybe a Catheterization. And I don't want that. Dr Fuhrman is a cardiologist and he has not lost a patient yet and the sickest of the sick come to him. SO that is the route I'm choosing.

I don't know if the eating plan will do me any good in repairing my IGA levels or whatever neuro thing is wrong with my eyes....but it can't hurt, right? At any rate....losing weight can only help every thing that is wrong with me.

Yesterday and this morning were only two days. Yes I did some damage with them, but it needn't be permanent. "Fall right down, get back up again." someone recently called me a "Weeble" (if you remember those toys you are dating yourself....unless they still make them, which I don't know) But Weebles wobble, but they don't fall down.

I'm going to read now. I have a purring kitty on my lap and she assures me that all will be well as long as I sit here and pet her.
onward and upward.
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  • _LINDA
    So very sorry you had this set back. Don't know that I could handle anything messing with my eyes. That would be the straw that broke the camel's back for sure. I hope they can solve it. I am being sent for some nerve testing. My news isn't good either (see my last blog)
    That eating program sounds great. They had a simple recipe featured on the Sparkmail today with brussel sprouts and apples and apple juice. I find the frozen ones better as they tend to be smaller and less bitter than fresh.
    I always feel better eating clean too. Very telling.
    The cold and darkness closing in here. Been overcast for 5 days and now the weekend is supposed to be all snow.But I will at least walk to my appointments when I can. Lots of physio and pool time.
    Take care of yourself,
    {{{gentle hugs}}}
    Linda
    2129 days ago
  • NANCYJO1000
    Hi, I was just thinking, if you are having a hard time finding good foods, http://www.skinnytaste.com (skinnytaste) is an awesome site for easy recipes and super healthy. She uses tons of veggie and fruits and has nutrition options, substtutions, and might be easier for you to make and give you some options for different foods. I use her all the time because they are fast and easy (and super healthy) and you could even have oatmeal "cookies" for breakfast which would be healthy too. Just a thought as I was reading your blog about the difficult foods. Your mention of brussel sprouts reminded me as I get her daily recipe updates and todays was about brussel sprouts. Hang in there, God is faithful and will not turn away. :)
    2129 days ago
  • KRISZTA11
    I'm sorry you have these health problems
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    I hope the tests and the dentist appointment go well.
    Whatever happens, being strong and eating well will be good for you.
    Take good care of yourself!
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    2129 days ago
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