Re-Start the Motivation
Thursday, November 20, 2014
yesterday was hard. I went to NY to see a neurologist following some visual disturbances I've been having. And she didn't have good news. I left the office with a fist full of prescriptions for MRI, EMG and bloodwork....all to be done by next Wed. I don't drive and all of these tests are in NY plus on Monday I have a dentist appointment and I think I need a crown and maybe a root canal.
Can I quit now? Because I'm really so done with all of this stuff. And I confess.....I ate last night to comfort myself. CRAP. Enough to have put on at least a pound. I have promised myself not to weigh myself until a week has passed and I can get back on track.
Today I went grocery shopping and got a bunch of fruits and veggies. I got a big bag of brussel sprouts which I've avoided for my whole life but tried recently and found I like them!! YAY!! More options!!
I've still been having chest pain but I did notice that when I'm being "good" on the ETL plan, it is infrequent or non-existent. I'm not going to a cardiologist. They will want to do stress test and maybe a Catheterization. And I don't want that. Dr Fuhrman is a cardiologist and he has not lost a patient yet and the sickest of the sick come to him. SO that is the route I'm choosing.
I don't know if the eating plan will do me any good in repairing my IGA levels or whatever neuro thing is wrong with my eyes....but it can't hurt, right? At any rate....losing weight can only help every thing that is wrong with me.
Yesterday and this morning were only two days. Yes I did some damage with them, but it needn't be permanent. "Fall right down, get back up again." someone recently called me a "Weeble" (if you remember those toys you are dating yourself....unless they still make them, which I don't know) But Weebles wobble, but they don't fall down.
I'm going to read now. I have a purring kitty on my lap and she assures me that all will be well as long as I sit here and pet her.
onward and upward.