Sunday, November 23, 2014
Okay, so I know I've been kinda fixated on the whole service dog thing. I had a wake up call in the form of a text from my favorite nephew. I've texted him about how excited I am about the dog and how it will be a few or more months before we can get it and he sends back this long email. My poor nephew has had a hard life and had a big problem finding a house for him, his wife and baby daughter to live in because they live in the small town I grew up in and everybody remembers him from when he was a teenager and in a lot of trouble. He's changed, he's grown up, he's had a daughter, but in a small town a reputation is hard to live down. So his last landlord decided he didn't like my nephew's wife and kicked him out. He's living with a friend temporarily but so far has not found a place to live. There are so many solutions to this problem if only family would help him. But they won't. He's the black sheep, like I was before I cut most of my family out of my life.
So all that to say I had a wake up call. Here I am complaining that it's going to be so long before I get my service dog when I have so many things to be grateful for. I've been fixated on something I want, so I wanted it now. How very spoiled rotten of me. I'm going to start saving, but I know there are other things that need to come first. I am still going to aim for my birthday, that is 6 months from now. But I'm not going to go on and on about it any more.
So that means I'll still have a grand to go saving for my dog and it's initial training. Maybe I can get my husband to match how much I save. So that will be $250 coming out of my check going to my friend for the next year to pay her back, $250 coming out to save for my dog. That leaves me with just enough to pay for my appointments, meds and therapeutic stuff I usually do. I hope that works. That means it will take me 10 months to pay off my friend and if DH does not help with paying for the service dog and initial training... 10 months for that too. It is okay, I will be as patient as I can be. If I can get DH to match my 250 it will take just 6 month. But that is if I start this month.... which I can't... we'll just have to wait and see
Okay, time to concentrate on other things, like losing weight, and my kids and getting better. I'll talk to DH about my plan, see what he is willing to do. I'll start training myself for when we have the dog, walking every day and training time with the puppy... take the puppy on the walks so I get used to having a dog with me so much. Talk to my pastor and make sure the church is cool with having a dog come with me (I don't want to force them to accept my service dog, though by law they have to, I don't want it to become a thing, no drama please!) I want to work on my photo albums and crochet as much as possible between now and Christmas.
Lots of goals, lots of things to work on, and big rewards at the end. I have to remember to be grateful for what I have. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, clothes to wear, a wonderful husband and children and the chance to save for a companion that could make my quality of
life even better. I need to be grateful for what I do have instead of pining for what I want to have. Even if the whole dog thing falls through I've still got a wonderful life that God has given me. And I am Grateful.
This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!