All kinds of stuff
Monday, November 24, 2014
I've finally got my Christmas list down! I want a juicer, the one my friend gave me was a cheaper one and broke, I'm assuming because I used it so much. I want a pair of fleece pants for the winter and I want a new wedding band, just a simple band, nothing expensive. And a gift card to Michael's so I can get more yarn and craft stuff. Maybe some coloring books, I'm getting bored with the ones I have.
Hubby is frustrated with me because I've been so focused on the service dog this last week. Well, I've been researching a lot, so it is on my mind. I want to know what I'm getting into before I put myself in for that kind of commitment. I'm honestly not doing well, anxiety is taking over/ruining my life and if the dog will help, I want it. But I don't want to be overwhelmed with training and such so that it causes more anxiety.
We are starting an account on gofundme.com I'll post more when we actually get it up. I'm going to see if people can get their churches involved and pass it around so that maybe we will get enough money to board train the dog instead of me having to work with a trainer at home. I truly pray that we do! I want my life back, and right now, from what my therapist has said, and what all my research has shown me, getting a well trained service dog will do that.
I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving, but at the same time I'm worried about it. The Aunts and Grandma can be so much fun, but can also be so judgmental. My friend today told me that she is learning that it's not really about her when that kind of thing happens, it is about where the other person is at when they are like that, and I think that is true. So I'm going to try to not get my feelings hurt and just pray for them and bless them and remember it is not about me, it is about where they are at. Otherwise I've got plans ready for every occasion like getting bored or claustrophobic or having an anxiety attack. I think I've got it covered and can just enjoy the vacation and food!
I went to a laundromat for the first time in over 15 years today. Our washer's seal broke and it is a front loading maching, so imagine the mess I had! But at the laundromat I could not figure out how to pay! I came prepared, lots of quarters and dollar bills... but there was only a slot for a card, which would not accept my debit card... you had to buy a laundromat card and put money on it and use it at the washer and dryers. Much nicer than having to have a pocket full of quarters! But man was it confusing, I was lucky that someone that worked there walked me through the steps so I was able to actually get my laundry done!
I have some prayer requests for my prayer warrior friends out there! My nephew is homeless again! He's managed to stay with a friend who will let him stay till the first of the month. His wife and baby daughter are with him. Please pray for my friends Mom, she was like a 2nd Mom to me growing up. She tried to kill herself several times before they finally got her admitted to a hospital, she's requested that her family not come see her. And for me with my anxiety, I feel like I'm getting worse, not better, I just have not had a major attack in two weeks. The medications are working, but they keep me feeling sedated so I can't drive and I can't get much done. I can't keep up like this.
Thank you all for all your comments and keeping up with my blog, it means so much to me!! After Thanksgiving I'm going to get up a few minutes earlier so I can start reading y'alls blogs again too! Love to you all!