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Staying in MS

Saturday, November 29, 2014

So we are going to go ahead and stay the whole time (Till Sunday morning). We are going to go outside or in another part of the house when the cigarettes come out. I've never felt my sinus as keenly as I did last night when they were smoking up a storm. It aggravates my sinus infection and now even my oldest DD is sniffling. We got out of the house this morning and got some coffee from Seattle Drip, my favorite coffee place, they don't have them where we live, so I always get a rainy day latte, YUM! It was nice to get out of the house, I was beginning to feel... almost trapped.

I'm feeling my social anxiety, too many loud people in such a small place. I love this house and these people, but it gets overwhelming when everyone keeps getting louder and louder and smoking... I've come close to having an anxiety attack several times and had to go back in the room to take my medicine and lay down and breath. I don't understand it, I've been here with these people tons of times and enjoy their company, why do I get anxiety? You'd think I'd be used to the loud rowdy crowd they can be.

emoticon I've not been walking, I forgot to bring my walking shoes and the shoes I did bring will hurt my feet if I do 20 minutes of walking in them, especially this hill. So I'm just going outside with the kids and sitting on the patio and watching them play and getting fresh air.

emoticon I've been eating a normal amount, not overeating for the most part, and that has been nice, not to eat till I'm stuffed and miserable like I used to. I've skipped breakfast because there is nothing to eat but breads and I'm trying to not eat too much bread. Though the latte I'm drinking is probably is a whole day's worth of calories, but man is it yummy!

But, other than the thick cigarette smoke and occasional flair up of my anxiety, I'm having a good time. I've enjoyed being able to let the girls just go and not worry about where they are at because wherever they go there is at least one or two adults.
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  • PURPLEPEONY
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    1914 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14651201
    Have a safe trip home tomorrow and enjoy the fresh air away from the smoke! I am happy that you are enjoying your visit despite the anxiety and smoke. emoticon emoticon
    Ps. I wish I could pack up and leave MS(multiple sclerosis) tomorrow!
    1915 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/29/2014 10:13:28 PM
  • no profile photo CD13755987
    I think with smoking, it's possible to become more sensitive to it as you get older. I grew up with two parents who smoked - it bothered me some when I was a teen but the older I get the more it bothers me - now I feel my throat closing up when I'm out in the yard and I get a whiff of the neighbour behind me smoking in his garage (man cave).

    I can understand how you're feeling - I always feel uncomfortable when surrounded by family - it's hard to spend that much time in close proximity when you're not used to it. It's such a relief to get home and be alone again!
    Sending hugs emoticon
    1915 days ago
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