Making BETTER Choices--when the Best ones are not Possible
Saturday, December 13, 2014
I've been struggling this week. I"ve "caved in" a couple of times while eating out. It was my birthday and a friend took me out for dinner to the Olive Garden. MMMmmm breadsticks!! and I was having fantasies of pasta Alfredo...However when the time came to order, I had decided on Grilled Salmon and broccoli, and we had two bowls of salad and (sigh) I had three breadsticks.
Then yesterday while eating out with a friend, I had fantasies of fried chicken on a biscuit with gravy. But instead I ordered two pieces of French Toast using whole wheat bread and it was topped with bananas. This was on their 600 calorie or less menu. (which still is way too high)
It is true that I had two pieces of my birthday carrot cake (not on the same day) and I really should have just pitched the last piece in the garbage.
So I have been feeling like a failure....The scale has crept up two pounds and this added to my disgust with myself.
But then last night I was thinking. No, I did not live according to the Eat to Live principles. But the truth is that in each diversion from the "path"...I ended up making much healthier choices than I'd initially intended. So maybe I should stop slapping myself around and high five myself for making better choices.
Tonight I'm invited to a friend's house for a lasagna dinner (with a group of my friends). I checked with her...she is serving salad. But what to do about the garlic bread and the lasagna? I've decided I will have a bowl of my homemade vegetable soup and then will make steamed collard greens and shredded carrots covered by a raison/balsamic sauce before I go out of the house. Then, with a full and satisfied tummy, I will have some salad and yes,maybe one piece of garlic bread and I suppose I will have to take a tiny piece of lasagna...but I will not eat all of it.
I still have not done any real exercise. This morning I need a shower...so maybe I can do some exercise and not worry about sweating. I know I need to do cardio...but really need to strengthen myself before I attempt to really work hard on the bike or walking. But once more, while not choosing the ideal path, I will make a choice that is better than it could be...and I will try to give myself credit for doing even that.
That old anorexic in me would have me flagellating myself for not being perfect. I need to get around that because there is a world of self-hatred in that line of thought and these days, rather than punishing myself for my "failures" by not eating for a week, these days I punish myself by making terrible choices and pigging out on whatever takes my fancy. I do not want to walk that path. (or to roll down it either :) ). So right now I'm trying to feel good about making better choices...maybe not the BEST choices...but sometimes circumstances demand flexibility and you just have to make the best of them and give yourself credit for doing as well as you did. And then pick yourself up and keep on the path that I have chosen to take...The path that will lead to better health and a slimmer body.