Another Feeding Catastrophe Averted
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Today my friend Ralph and I went to a nice restaurant in town. It was packed. My decision to go there was based on the knowledge that I can get a large garden salad with a veggie patty to crumble into large pieces on the salad. I ate that....and then the bakery area near the cash register was calling my name. I ordered a gingerbread girl for my daughter and was feasting my eyes on every imaginable calorie laden concoction ....and then I saw it. A HUGE bowl of fruit salad...all fresh fruits. YAY!! I ordered a bowl of that and walked away, proud of myself for my decision. And I enjoyed the fruit more than I would have enjoyed something dripping with icing....because I was guilt free!!
I debated on whether or not to weigh myself this morning. I had decided not to weigh myself more than twice a week. Today was the due date for that schedule so even though i have not been perfect on my eating plan...I HAVE been making better decisions....maneuvering my way around other people's expectations and my own cravings. I make black bean and prune brownies...they are not as bad as they sound. I wrapped them up and froze them....so if (when) I get up at night, I can nuke just one brownie and be satisfied with that. And essentially that is a free food for my plan so it is guilt free.
I have a plan for Christmas dinner which will be at my mom's house. I will have a BIG salad and a lot of the veggie....and THEN I will have a small piece of the lasagna that my mom is going to make. My mom and I have struggled and fought over food issues for years. I used to be a raw vegan....and refused to eat the turkey on Thanksgiving. That was not a wise move and it led to a big fight and lingering resentments. This year I will sample everything on the table....and I will eat a big enough piece of lasagna to keep mom from crying.
The real problem will be avoiding the containers of candy and chocolates that will be littering the room. Since no one will be insulted if I don't eat that....I have no excuse to eat it. This is something I just have to hype myself up for in the days preceding. I want to review to myself the reason I'm eating the way I am...my goals in doing so and the 17 lb loss so far. I do not want to jeopardize that.
It all takes preparation and a healthy dose of focus...living mindfully. Do not eat just because it's available or in front of you. Don't sit in a chair where it is within reach.
I pray that all of you can use wisdom in your holiday eating. Don't tell yourself "It's a holiday and then go hog wild eating everything just because it's offered. Make your mind up before you face the loaded table, what you will eat and what you will forgo. And may your next weigh-in be bright!!