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Getting back on track

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

It's late here. Almost midnight. But I can't sleep and decided I would take this time to update my blog. I haven't posted since May 2014!! Shame on me! I read my introduction to this blog and realize I am right back to square 1. I worked out very little after May. Stopped blogging on my website and basically went back into hiding. Still miserable with all this weight, still feeling lost....until now.

I'm always reading motivational and fitness related websites. I read about other peoples success and feel like that is something that is out of my reach. The work to get in shape just feels so overwhelming. My problem is I look at the big picture instead of just focusing on the small accomplishments I can make now.

When the New year started, I felt like I had to make a resolution (which I did not make). For me resolutions just end up becoming failures that start the vicious cycle of feeling unsuccessful. Which then leads to emotional eating and the guilt that goes along with it.

So the other day, I sat down with myself and started thinking of all the things I am missing out of in life. Time with friends and family, confidence, motivation, wearing clothes that actually look nice and form fitting, traveling, racing events, self esteem, the feeling one has when you are strong and healthy. My life is literally passing me by as I hide from the feeling of self worthlessness.

Well today, this moment, it stops! I have to get my life back. I am not getting any younger and I miss the person I use to love. I'm tired of reading about everyones success and need to have my own successful story. I need to transform into the person I dream of becoming.

Today (1/13) was a good day and a step in the right direction. I logged all my food in a food diary and stayed within my caloric range (1200 - 1400 calories). I actually put on my Spark activity tracker and walked 1.5 miles. I got all my steps in today. I am journaling by posting this blog. Today I held myself accountable. Got everything done I set out to do. I feel something I haven't felt in awhile.......hope :)

I need to remind myself to take it one day at a time, one step at a time. I need to appreciate the accomplishments like today, no matter how small they may be. Logging in my food is a must because it helps me to stay on track and shows me where I need to improve. That goes with fitness as well.

I know now I need to take the night before and plan my next day out. I have an app on my phone that lets me set daily goals, which I can check off when completed.

This is a complete lifestyle change for me and I need to realize it is not going to happen over night. I am one of those people that wants instant gratification and that is just not going to happen on this journey. I need to accept this and I have.

Tomorrow is a new day and I have all my tools in hand. I am going to start blogging here more often and maybe even get my website (live2win.org) back up and running.

I am excited to see where this road I have found takes me. If you would like to take this journey together, drop me an email and I will follow and support you all the way. I will end with this......"You don't have to be great to start, But you have to start to be great" ~ Zig Zagler
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    Hi There,

    you have done awesome today! This is the way to be successful.
    If only we could all have instant gratification and results. BUT.............we can't so the plan is one day at a time.

    Believe me when I say, the time passes quickly and before you know it, you are reaching the goals you have set for yourself.
    Think of yourself one year from now...........where do you want to be? That is your long term goal. You CAN be the weight and shape you want to be in within the year.

    One year goes by so quickly and by this time next year, I'll just bet you are looking and feeling your best. You may accomplish it before that time but one year is a good length of time to reach for.

    REMEMBER this if anything.........as you near your goal weight, have a plan. Have new goals set so you know that you will still be working on keeping the weight off and the healthy fitness in place.
    To be healthy, you need to work out at least 3 times a week. Or work out every day for shorter increments but you must incorporate it as a daily practice to be healthy and fit. YOU CAN DO THIS! Don't diet but eat healthy and use your water to help curb overeating. I drink water as I prepare meals and during my meals.....and after a workout. I hope these tips can help you with your plans. So far you are doing great.

    Wishing you all the best in reaching your goals and maintaining a healthy life style.
    Susan emoticon
    2057 days ago
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    Maria: I really enjoyed reading your blog. I relate to everything you said, especially about the "vicious cycle of feeling unsuccessful". Been there, done that. I was always beating myself up for not sticking with my plan. I also have a hard time because I look too much at the big picture and it overwhelms me. I still have times like that. But as soon as I started focusing on the small accomplishments and took one day at a time, it all started working for me. Not quickly, but it was a steady progression forward. Sounds like you are on the right track and are motivated over the small, important, positive things you see in your life. Good for you. You are going to do this and encourage others to do the same. I am on your cheering team. Please keep blogging.
    2239 days ago
    You took so many positive action steps today! You are awesome! emoticon
    2239 days ago
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