I probably said it before...
Monday, February 16, 2015
....but I'm sayin' it again. JUST DO it. I've regained some weight (about 9 lbs--maybe a little less). I have NOT been eating according to Doc Fuhrman's plan. There is absolutely no excuse. It is true that there was nothing in the house to eat over the weekend....so when my DH brought Chinese food home I gobbled it. He brought home some cereal yesterday....I'm hoping I have enough left of my salad for dinner tonight. Tomorrow my grocery order will be delivered and once more I will have veggies in the house and some needed ingredients for healthy meals.
My husband is really worrying me. He seems to be in a complete tailspin. He's making unwise food choices, shoveling the driveway with occluded cardiac arteries and an injured elbow....and eating pure crap. I can't motivate him to take care of himself because he is very depressed. He hates living here and he sees no hope for the future. We are barely scraping by even though he makes decent money for this area. He has nothing put aside for retirement....he sees no way out but for him to die and for us to have his insurance money. I don't know what to tell him. I wish I could work again...but I still can't drive and I don't think I could manage to do anything due to my poor health. it's a terrible situation. My hope is in the Lord...that's the only reason I can get up in the morning.
It's ironic that years ago I was healthy and had the whole world in front of me.....and was so depressed I couldn't even speak. And now, when things really ARE bad, I tend to be more optimistic ....God has met our needs time and time again. I know that he will pull us through. But my husband doesn't have that faith....and it's not something I can do for him or give to him. That's between him and God.
But that's another story. The issue here and now is my taking better care of what I eat....and trying to get rid of this excess weight. then maybe i could exercise again and regain some of my lost health and strength. i just wish he would do it with me....maybe if he sees me being vigilant about what i put in my mouth, he would be willing to give it a try.