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I probably said it before...

Monday, February 16, 2015

....but I'm sayin' it again. JUST DO it. I've regained some weight (about 9 lbs--maybe a little less). I have NOT been eating according to Doc Fuhrman's plan. There is absolutely no excuse. It is true that there was nothing in the house to eat over the weekend....so when my DH brought Chinese food home I gobbled it. He brought home some cereal yesterday....I'm hoping I have enough left of my salad for dinner tonight. Tomorrow my grocery order will be delivered and once more I will have veggies in the house and some needed ingredients for healthy meals.

My husband is really worrying me. He seems to be in a complete tailspin. He's making unwise food choices, shoveling the driveway with occluded cardiac arteries and an injured elbow....and eating pure crap. I can't motivate him to take care of himself because he is very depressed. He hates living here and he sees no hope for the future. We are barely scraping by even though he makes decent money for this area. He has nothing put aside for retirement....he sees no way out but for him to die and for us to have his insurance money. I don't know what to tell him. I wish I could work again...but I still can't drive and I don't think I could manage to do anything due to my poor health. it's a terrible situation. My hope is in the Lord...that's the only reason I can get up in the morning.

It's ironic that years ago I was healthy and had the whole world in front of me.....and was so depressed I couldn't even speak. And now, when things really ARE bad, I tend to be more optimistic ....God has met our needs time and time again. I know that he will pull us through. But my husband doesn't have that faith....and it's not something I can do for him or give to him. That's between him and God.

But that's another story. The issue here and now is my taking better care of what I eat....and trying to get rid of this excess weight. then maybe i could exercise again and regain some of my lost health and strength. i just wish he would do it with me....maybe if he sees me being vigilant about what i put in my mouth, he would be willing to give it a try.

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  • DUSTYPRAIRIE
    are you my mirror image? I just see to be going backwards, too, and the more I stress about it the worse it gets.

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    2044 days ago
  • JANISMKW
    Maybe the best thing you could do for your DH would be to get him to talk to his doctor about his depression. Depression seldom goes away by itself, but treatment is very possible, though it takes time and sometimes more than one attempt at a solution.

    The main reason married men live longer than single men is: their wives make them go to the doctor!

    God bless you both.
    2045 days ago
  • _LINDA
    So very sorry to hear of your struggles :-(( I wonder what ever happened to your poor DH's enthusiasm when he first went on his heart healthy plan? Depression is hard to break free from, I suppose he wouldn't even consider seeking help? If its the financial situation, could he not look for a better job in a place he would like to live, and move from this place? Sometimes a change is needed to break out of a rut.
    All you can do is offer him healthy meals, its his choice to eat it or not, but you must take care of yourself, it would be nice if he did follow your example..
    Praying for better days for you both..
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    2045 days ago
  • PJDANIELS
    So sorry you are struggling. Hope you can get things under control.
    2045 days ago
  • WHITECAT19
    It is very hard to deal with depression. I've been struggling with it for decades. I will keep your DH in my prayers. It is hard to stop being self-destructive or to be hopeful with that particular medical/emotional/spiritual issue. I am glad you are optimistic! That will help you immeasurably.
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    2045 days ago
  • LUCYCAN7
    Sometimes all you can do is listen and let him talk and talk.Do you have
    a Pastor you can speak with about him or his medical doctor.He may
    need medication for his depression.Will keep you both in my thoughts
    and prayers.Hugs and Blessings! emoticon emoticon
    2045 days ago
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