Yep, I'm Pathetic and I know it
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
I had a really pathetic running moment (or series of them) today. I went to the gym, despite every core of my being trying to come up with arguments why I shouldn't, but I did. The place was nearly full, but I managed to find a treadmill (would have been REALLY annoyed if there were none!). I'm on Week 5 day 1 of Run 10K, which is 68 min, 2.5 running and 2.5 walking. Anyway, the 2.5 min seemed like an eternity. I mean, it felt REALLY hard. Afterwards, I felt rather ill, but I went and did my crunches, contemplated showering at the gym cause I felt so icky, but just booked it home. Anyway, here's the pathetic part. I was on my way home and my mind was doing this thing, "Wow that was really hard. I feel crappy. It sucks that it was so hard. Why is it always so hard? Why do I feel so crappy?". I started to come to the realization that yes, it was hard, yes I felt crappy, but I actually DID it. First of all, I made it to the gym in the first place. Secondly, I ran all the running intervals, even when I wanted to give up and/or die, but I didn't (give up or die). I decided to feel good and positive about it, because it WAS good and positive! (But next time maybe I'll eat lunch and not run on an almost-empty stomach...). Maybe I'm not so pathetic after all.... :)