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A Confession

Tuesday, March 03, 2015

I have still been messing around with the three pound yoyo my body plays with . Lose three, gain three, lose three, gain three....and repeat ad nauseum. I know why it is. My meals are pretty healthy. I've been eating a lot of greens and whole grains (not a lot of those, about one serving a day as per Dr Fuhrman.) But then, my husband comes home with a pizza...and I was out all day and I was definitely too exhausted to cook and we were out of fresh veggies....so I had a piece of pizza. Later I had a bowl of edamame (fresh hulled soybeans) that I had in the freezer....Why didnt I think of that before the pizzza?
And then yes. There was a box of Entenmans donuts in the house. (Now, how did THOSE get here??) So , i had one. Really, just one. But it is things like this that are sabotaging my eating program. And our dentist sent my husband home with a GROCERY bag full of bagels. And no one twisted my arm but I did have one --for the past two or three days.

It's really the eating out that is getting to me. And then nighttime bowls of cereal.
Yes, I do see a disturbing pattern here. There are definitely more issues than just one. I hadn't really realized how far I'd strayed until I wrote this. I was keeping a diet journal --before I started to slide and I don't know if that sliding was a cause or effect. But I need to monitor myself a little more. Dr Fuhrman says you don't need to track---but that is assuming you are sticking to his eating plan. If you are NOT, then I think it's reasonable to start journaling again. And to keep at it.

So yes. Today I'm getting a grocery order with fresh greens and veggies and fruits....so I am without excuse. I also need to come up with some different things to eat. I got stuck in a rut for awhile...today I will search the ETL cook book and see what I have the ingredients to make. i forgot to order veggie stock from the store...so maybe I will have to make that so that I can make some soup. That is a good thing to bring with me when I am out so as to avoid the dreaded DT's (drive thru's emoticon ) or to the church when they are having a meal together.

So the damage is not as bad as it could be. It's "only " three pounds. Not too far gone that there's no coming back. I did however, cheat frequently enough that i had not gone through the withdrawal all the way from the toxic food addiction. Junk food still tasted "good" and I did not lose the toxic hunger (which is belly hunger...that gnawing rumbly stuff....did you know that is not really hunger?? That is merely your body beginning to detox ...however we think it's hunger and continually dump food in there and you never get to the fat burning point)

Anyway. I know what I have to do. I need to learn to say "NO!!" when someone offers me a "treat"....the road to hell is paved with fast food restaurants. LOL
I am going to restart or continue with my diet journal. Need a tighter leash on this puppy. I can do this. and I WILL.
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    Good for you! No single "diet guru" knows exactly what works for you. Only you know that. If most of the program works for you, great! But I'm glad you are also going to do the tracking because it helps you.

    You are doing great!

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    2018 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Its very hard and frustrating when temptations keep continuously crossing your path. Bagels aren't the worst -if you just have half a one. But there sure is conflicting information on how much grains one should have in their diet. But for sure, it builds the calories up quickly. My stepdad eats nothing but grains -half a loaf of bread daily (loaded with heaping spoonfuls of peanut butter and jam), noodle soup for lunch and supper, oatmeal for breakfast, same thing day in day out with a cookie at the coffee shop twice daily and popcorn for a treat. And with little exercise he remains a normal weight! So not fair! Not a single fruit or veggie! Incredible! My Mom eats very little but its also grains with maybe one or two fruit or veggie servings at best -which is why I always have to take my own food when I go over there, but she gets lots of exercise cleaning daily, hiking and playing with Daisy. We very rarely eat out and I never do by myself so not an issue but it certainly is for those who indulge regularly.
    Losing and regaining three pounds not so bad. you know what the trouble is you just have to plan for it.
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    2027 days ago
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    2027 days ago
    I absolutely have to track my food. Otherwise, I am just not realistic about what I'm eating, and how much. I'll think I'm doing okay, but when I write it down, oh my, not so good. Now I track even when I eat off plan. It just plain works.
    2027 days ago
  • PGHP31CK
    You've recognized the pattern, and you're making changes. Good for you!!! Cheering you on, Cynthia -- I know that you ARE gonna lose that yoyo!

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    2028 days ago
    your right on the fast food restaurant.. lol emoticon
    2028 days ago
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