Needing some help...
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Its been a little over a week on my detox diet and although the scale has been going in the right direction the last few days have been rough.
Last week on vacation it was so easy because I was relaxed and in the sunshine, but being back in school and all the stress that comes with that is hard. The last two nights I've only gotten a combined 11 hours of sleep and its starting to take its toll. Hopefully tonight I will be able to get a good nights sleep. I've had so much homework the last few days that I now have a pain in my neck from spending so much time in from of my computer. Today was the last really crazy day of this week so hopefully it will get better.
On top of all of this, yesterday was very emotional. I've never been close with my father and its hard for me to accept that no matter what I do in order to work on our relationship he wants the end result without putting in the effort needed to get there. With wedding planning this comes up a lot and it makes me sad. I'm very torn on how I should walk down the aisle. My mom raised me and if anyone would "give me away" it would be her, but I know it would hurt my grandmother on my dads side to not have her son give me away. She is unaware of all the problems me and him have and so it would be difficult to explain to her why he wasn't walking me down the aisle. I thought maybe both my mom and day could walk me down the aisle, but with them being divorced for practically my entire life I feel like that will be awkward. I'm left thinking the only option is to walk myself down the aisle, but that seems lonely. What do you guys think? What would you do if you were me?
I didn't mean for this post to turn into a therapy session, but it must be what I needed. Even though yesterday was really hard for me I stayed on my meal plan and even went on an evening run since it is finally warm enough! Thanks for reading and being apart of my journey any help, wisdom or encouragement would mean the world to me!