Wednesday, March 11, 2015
everyone has been asking about a picture of my "new" car - haven't taken one yet but here is a generic picture of the exact car
first of all as per my last entry - the Beck diet solution works - when you stick to it....I'm not sticking to anything right now...except maybe eating waaaaay to much every day.
I lost my log-in streak a couple of days ago and I am much more upset by it than I should be....I love all the people here but I am so tired of seeing the site and knowing that I am not doing the right things...I am such a failure that I can't even log-in right anymore
anyway - I've been getting wonderful goodies and notes an messages from everyone and I just don't have the energy to respond like I should...I am sorry for that. I am sorry that I am failing so miserably. I used to be so good at this and I am not good at anything but eating anymore.
I don't know if I am going to stick around or not....I know I need to....and I need to stay around all you wonderful people. but I feel like such a looser and not in a good way.
Sorry this is such a downer - just thought getting it all wrote down might help...I don't know. I think about others that are struggling so much more than I am and I feel like a weenie for even complaining. But I can't make myself feel better by snapping my fingers, I wish I could.
If you are taking time to read this entry - thank you very much - I have always responded individually to everyone that posts...I'm not sure I am up to that right now - it is one of the many reasons I have put off blogging for so long. but please know that I will read every single message and I am grateful for anyone that takes their time for me.