A Good Talkin' to
Thursday, March 19, 2015
HONESTLY, I don't know why people keep reading my blogs here...It's the same old story: Get motivated, get determined and psyched....lose a couple of pounds....stumble a bit ...and regain the "couple of pounds."
What happened? Well my DH bought me a massive brownie. Isn't he sweet?? But honestly --he KNOWS I'm doing ETL and he KNOWS I can't resist a treat like that.
And last night I was all set to cook a healthy dinner....and he ordered pizza. I didn't want to cook only for me (which is really what I should have done) so I had one small piece of pizza. Now the logical part of me knows that those two cheats are really not going to cause me significant weight gain....I know that the two pound gain is likely water weight or due to bowel issues from pain meds that I had to take yesterday. So why do i feel so crushed? It's that darned scale again. My nemesis. But I know if I gave up weighing altogether, I would not remain "in check."
So what do I do? Try to get the bowels moving again....and get right back on the path of healthy eating. My husband just on Monday was talking about how he needs to follow ETL because he is going to drop dead very soon if he doesn't. So why did he order an Italian sub that same day (along with the brownies) and yesterday he ordered pizza in spite of the fact that i'd told him what I was making and I know it was something he would eat? He is self destructing. And he is trying to take me with him.
I have to just put blinders on. I have a menu written up for this week. I need to stick to it and not pay any attention to what he is doing. Yes, I will offer him some of what I am making...but no...I will not eat what HE is eating. It makes me so sad....the answer to his illness is right there on the plate I put in front of him. But as the saying goes: you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink. I know I will be widowed soon unless he gets his act together. He is completely addicted to toxic foods and there is nothing I can do or say to make living important enough to sacrifice his wanton appetite for it.
And YOU, Mr Scale, You do NOT have the ability to discourage me. I know the facts. The facts are that I ate two things I shouldn't have...and that gave you fodder for a lie. I will not believe the lie--I will keep on doing what I know is right as I have been...I will continue to eat healthfully - a high nutrient diet, high in micronutrients and low in macronutrients. (carbs, fats, and protein) which is where all the calories dwell. I know that a plant based diet has more than adequate protein. If grass can keep a horse healthy without any added protein or animal products, then it can sustain "little" ole me. (well not grass exactly!)
Well, I don't know about you...but I needed this "talkin' to"....a few minutes ago as i stepped off the scale I was in a full blown panic, and ready to ditch the whole thing. I'm feeling better now; encouraged once again to stay with the program. and I DO thank you for reading my blog...We are in this together and