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Giving up - WHO ME????

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Friday, March 20, 2015




OK - so I lost my head a few days ago and decided to give up. Boy I’m not to bright sometimes!!!!! emoticon

Many, many of you wrote on my blog, sent me goodies and sent emails. I read every single one and they all made a huge difference. A few stood out and kind of punched me in the gut with the realization of the fact that people I’ve never met really do care! I began trying to get my head on straight and had what some would call a big set back, but I called it a major wake up call!

Tuesday the 17th I was out with my husband James and my mother-in-law when I began to feel really sick and terribly thirsty. I had not tested my sugar in a couple of days because I had lost my meter. James insisted we go buy a new one. I did and it showed high enough to scare me. I checked my self into the ER and was there several hours getting my blood sugar down to a safe level. I realized that not only had I lost my meter but I had been forgetting to take my meds! I really screwed up this time. I knew then I had to get back on my healthy eating plan.

So, I started back low carb and my sugar is coming down. It is going a little slowly because I just had cortisone shots in my knees on Wednesday and that keeps your sugar up a few days. I am already feeling better being off all those high carbohydrates. I was so encouraged when the doctor at the ER and my own doctor the next day told me that I needed to go back low carb. It was a validation for me that low carb is the way to go for me. I of course will still be using the Beck Diet solution ideas for the mental and emotional aspect of the whole thing.

I also went out and bought a new scale, one that will actually weigh me. It says I am 420, my doctors scales showed on Wednesday that I was 423, and the weight at the ER was my original highest weight of 426. So what do I go with???….Since I have access to mine every day, I am going with it and resetting my weight tracker to a high of 420. Not because it is the lowest…if I had my preference I would just as soon stay with 426 as that is easy for me to remember! LOL but I want my losses to be accurate and if I leave it at 426 and then put my current weight of 420 it will look like I have lost 6 pounds when I haven’t! So there is the long explanation of why I am resetting my high weight! emoticon


I took a new picture and got rid of all the old ones. A new adventure deserves a new picture. emoticon


I want to thank all of you again. It really made a huge difference in my attitude to know that so many took time out of their day to reach out to me. I truly believe I am finally back and ready to do this again. emoticon

Oh and of course I am on a new log in streak…lets see how high I can get before I forget to log in!!!!! emoticon


Oh and happy Sparkversary to me!!!!! the 15th marked my 9th year. emoticon
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  • LADYBUG1943
    So glad you caught yourself before you had even more drastic health concerns. And good luck on your new liquid journey.

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    2159 days ago
  • LADYBUG1943
    So glad you caught yourself before you had even more drastic health concerns. And good luck on your new liquid journey.

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    2159 days ago
  • OKGOATGAL
    How's it going?
    2196 days ago
  • KAREN608
    Glad you are back and starting again. Just good for you...... look how your sugar got up there when you stopped doing things you ought to do...

    Even if we don't make huge leaps of improvement, even small ones, choosing healthier options etc, is a good thing!

    It's been a hard winter / spring for me. I had to take a break from challenges as they had a lot of fluff to do to make points and had nothing to do with exercise which is what I really need. It was getting boring so taking a break. It did challenge me more to move it so I learned something from it.

    One day at a time!
    2206 days ago
  • CALIGRL63
    Way to go! that is awesome that you didnt give up! Stay on track and check out this community when ever you feel the need to give up again! YOU CAN DO IT!
    2208 days ago
  • MARYJEANSL
    I'm glad you're not giving up. You can do this! emoticon
    2208 days ago
  • BESTME63
    Great post! You have encouraged me and convinced me that logging in daily is important and there is positivity in just showing up some days even if you're not quite in the place of doing it yet. Because of your post I'm going to jump in too!
    2209 days ago
  • BOPPY_
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  • RADIOBOY
    emoticon Good on ya mate.


    2211 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    Glad to have you back on track! We all get self doubt sometimes. It is so quick to gain weight and so slow to come off. It can get discouraging! You are on the right track and that is all that matters. Best wishes!
    2212 days ago
  • UNCOMMONANGEL
    I too, tried to give up on myself in the past... only to realize that it's not a "want to thing" but a "need to thing". Give yourself credit for getting your butt back on track, :) and keep on fighting! We're all fighting with you! emoticon
    2212 days ago
  • JAB2010
    Glad your back! emoticon emoticon
    2212 days ago
  • AHAPPYSPIRIT
    I'm glad you did not give up!
    2217 days ago
  • OKGOATGAL
    So glad to see you back! YOU CAN DO IT! Keep the positive attitude and when you get down, look back at all the people who are supportive of you!
    2218 days ago
  • WALNUTT1961
    Doing the Happy Dance for you! You are so worth the effort you put in for your health. Stay determined! emoticon
    2222 days ago
  • SUBMOM2
    I'm glad you are back in action!!
    2223 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    I know that the last couple of years were rough for you, Kat. I am so very glad to see that you are back again! As you can see - you are loved. . .
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    2223 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    Such wonderful news! Thanks for sharing! I was concerned about you. I'll check into the Beck diet....Never heard of it...
    2223 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Happy Sparkiversary. I am going on 8 years and you have reached your ninth year. emoticon emoticon I am so happy to hear that you have decided to stay with Spark. It takes a long time for some of us to get to the goal we originally set. There are often setbacks on the way. But remember, you have so many Spark Friends that care about you and cheer you on. emoticon emoticon
    2223 days ago
  • SPEDED2
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  • EVER-HOPEFUL
    see love you are still here after 9 years don´t you realise what a great achievement that is.you may have had a few detours along the way but you haven´t given up and are still here.i always say the best diets are the ones that work for you and should that be low carb then so be it.you can so do this love i am proud of you emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2223 days ago
  • BEVIEG41
    Glad you are listening to someone. I would use the weight from the ER. When I worked in the ER, they calibrated the scales all the time, so they would be accurate. Not sure about dr office. But you do whatever makes you feel good. I know my friend is a diabetic and she has to curtain all the wonderful carbs that she used to eat. Oh well, we need to stay healthy. We miss you on the women +55 team. I found a receipt for GLUSH THE FAT AWAY VEGETABLE SOUP, and it is working for me, so I have my fingers crossed. Cruise coming up soon. Bev
    2223 days ago
  • 1HAPPYSPIRIT
    Start taking baby steps and NEVER GIVE UP!
    2223 days ago
  • _BABE_
    Great new start! emoticon
    2223 days ago
  • MARUKI52
    Good to see you back and with a new sense of where you are going from now. emoticon
    2223 days ago
  • MOM2ACAT
    emoticon I'm so happy to hear that you are not giving up! Reading your blog today made my day! I know you can do this, and I wish you all the best with this new start! emoticon
    2224 days ago
  • WILLOW49
    Good job getting back on track! Stay focused. You've got this!
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    2224 days ago
  • INGMARIE
    Awesome, you are back on track and taking care of you again. emoticon

    you can do this emoticon emoticon

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    2224 days ago
  • RETIREDGMA
    Congratulations on getting back on track...it does give you a sense of accomplishment! Remember that you might have been wearing different clothes when you were at the doctors from when you weigh yourself at home. I keep a spreadsheet of my weight at home and it is always less than the one for TOPS!
    2224 days ago
  • BEFIT021
    emoticon Glad you made the RIGHT choice and are staying!! emoticon
    2224 days ago
  • NASFKAB
    so glad that you are not giving up, keep at it Kathy, you are a wonderful person, all the best for your journey back to health
    2224 days ago
  • MEWHENRYSMAMA
    Yes, you do have many SparkFriends out here you never met and we do care!
    I am so glad you did not give up...I am even glad you ended up in the ER to help you see what you needed to do...take care of yourself...remember..it is a lifestyle, not a diet! I commend your getting a new scale, new picture and a new attitude! emoticon
    I, too, would go with 420...the other weights were dressed and probably not in the morning! Let the Dr use his weight, you will still see a loss when you go back!
    Will be looking for your next blog....
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    Comment edited on: 3/21/2015 2:12:03 AM
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  • IDICEM
    So happy for you to be back on track. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2224 days ago
  • RICKI157
    I am proud of you for taking control of your diabetes and yourself. I know it is not easy to do. I go days sometimes without checking my readings or using my meter because I know it will be high. And it is so much easier to eat what I want and just not care than it is to measure and weigh my portions. I ate 6 Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches the other night because I felt upset and depressed. 6!!!!!! I still can't believe I did that. The thing I am having to realize is that I am only hurting myself when I do stuff like that and it doesn't make me feel better, it just made me more depressed.
    I know you can do what you need to do for you and I am going to try real hard to do what I need to do for me on this journey to be a healthier person!!!!!
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    2224 days ago
  • JAMER123
    YES! So glad you are going to hang in there with us and help us alone too. You are right to use the lower weight as that is the scale you will use to check and weigh in with. You can set your goals to this weight. Make them doable and work with you blood sugar. It's terribly important!! Once you get your eating plan set you will control that as well. All things work together. I am happy for you, Kathy that you made the decision to help yourself become healthier!! Wonderful!
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    2224 days ago
  • MARYBETH45101
    You are awesome and you like myself can do this I will be here to support you and help you keep going.. I also have type2 Diabetes and it blows but I have lost 87 pounds and I am fighting to keep it all together.. Believe me I need all the support I can get.. So you keep bringing those scale numbers down cause your life is worth it..
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    2224 days ago
  • 4RASCALS
    Glad that you are going to make your health a priority. Diabetes can cause so many complications. Stay positive & focused. I know that you can do it. It won't be easy. Slow & steady will get you there. I'm so happy that you realize that your worth it. Great new that your sugar is going down. Don't forget your med's. Hang in there.


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  • BLUEJAY1969
    I am SO proud of you for getting back on track! Sometimes it takes a scare to "wake us back up." I am really glad that it was not so serious that you had to stay in hospital though!
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    Jeanne
    2224 days ago
  • B-N-ME
    emoticon to see you hanging in there and not throwing in the towel
    The comments here are all emoticon
    Many people as you can read think you are emoticon
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    2224 days ago
  • LADYSTARWIND
    Delighted to see your new smile....its like you are happy to be "home" again, and is born of the confidence that you know what lies before you...and you KNOW you will get there! Will look forward to your inspiration as you share your Journey.

    "A strong woman knows she has strength for the Journey...
    A woman of strength knows that in the Journey she will become strong."

    As ever, all the best!
    patti
    2224 days ago
  • EJB2801
    I'm so glad you and your hubby worked together and got you help before things really spiraled down.
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    Keep nourishing your soul and blessing us all with being part of our wonderful SparkPeople site!
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    2224 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Good for you taking care of YOU!
    2224 days ago
  • KING_SLAYER
    I am very glad that you have found a renewed spirit and are ready to get to work once again! Take things slow and steady and don't forget to check your blood sugar!
    2224 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12120990
    Please remember the significance of the cross. Jesus thought you were worth it. You are worth it. So glad you are ready to move downward. emoticon
    2224 days ago
  • LUCYCAN7
    Thank goodness you are not giving up.You can do this,we all are here to
    help one another.No one is perfect,we all mess up at times.You will be so
    thankful you did not give up. emoticon
    2224 days ago
  • DIANNEMT
    You need to take care of yourself!!! Hope this wake up call will keep you going forward--and do rely on your friends!
    2224 days ago
  • SEAWILLOW
    You are back on track! You made the wisest decision to choose the scale you will be weighing on more.
    I weighed today 268 but I am not counting it since it was not the scale I usually weigh on. You are not alone on your journey. It helps to face our struggles together.
    2224 days ago
  • LASSY319
    Hey Kathy! I knew you would turn around - we all have our own reasons - and a health scare is a mighty powerful one. Join us in the Sparking Low Carb group for good tips and friendly support. You can do this! emoticon
    2224 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4114015
    I also am so very thankful that you stayed. You actually, have a double reason to lost the weight. BOTH serious! I am praying with you and for you so please reach out any time you hit a bump in the road! Beck WORKS so stick with it PLEASE!

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    2224 days ago
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