Saturday, March 21, 2015
Oh my goodness how the time flies!
I didn't work out yesterday, but plan to this morning, after I wake up a bit more. I really think this work out routine that I'm doing will help me to lose the weight, it is very intense. Okay, it's intense for me at this very low level of fitness that I am. I have a new reason for working out and wanting to get stronger... I don't do a lot of heavy lifting because quite honestly I can't, but the other day I was rearranging the living room and my girls were like "oh, you better wait for Daddy to move that, it's heavy" So I asked them why I should wait and they said girls aren't as strong as boys. *sigh* Is this what I've taught my children? So we had a talk and I moved the couch - by myself and I'm now striving to show them that girls can be strong too.
I did not eat well yesterday. In fact I did not eat well most of the week. But I think I just went a little coo-coo after not being able to eat certain things, I think I felt deprived. But starting today I'm going to start eating better. I've got a scale now, so I can weigh my food. I hate doing that, but if I don't I'll eat too much. And I really want to start seeing some progress.
I got depressed with really high anxiety on Thursday, lasted through all of Friday, and am still feeling a bit awful. We didn't go to CC because of it, I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack and didn't feel like I could make it through without having one, which would be awful. I think I know why I'm feeling like this, but it's something that I thought had lost the power to make me feel like this. I pray that it loses this power over me.
I'm working hard with my workouts, now to work hard at watching what I eat!