Monday, April 06, 2015
A little over 2 years since my last blog entry. A lot sure has happened since then. I have been absent from this site but it’s never far from my mind. I grew and learned so much from the time I spent here. When I joined in 2008, I never guessed I’d lose over 100 pounds, let alone that I’d grow mentally, physically, and spiritually. But all those things happened.
And then life happened, and around the time I disappeared from sparkpeople, I was going through the most difficult personal trauma I’d ever gone through. I found out that my husband of 9 years had been cheating on me for the last 4. Almost immediately, I filed for divorce and started my life over. It was awful, and yet, here I am, still learning and growing and experiencing beautiful new beginnings.
During the divorce process, I stopped eating and landed at my lowest weight ever. I’m not going to lie; it felt great even though I knew it wasn’t healthy or sustainable. But finally, I was one of those girls who couldn’t eat! I’ve never been that girl. Of course, it didn’t last. As I worked through things, I started to eat again. I trained for my first full marathon in the fall of 2013 and began to eat more than I’d ever eaten before. Which was great when I was training, but not great after the marathon. I’d gotten lax on my eating because I could eat whatever I wanted when I was training and there were no repercussions. I didn’t feel like tracking anymore, and that was ok. I was still healthy.
But….then I put on a few pounds. And I've started dating a great guy, and we go out and eat together or watch a movie and snack…and now a few more pounds have appeared. I have about 10-15 pounds I’d like to get rid of, and I want to take action and turn in the opposite direction of the way I have been going.
I am still active, still running and weight lifting. I’m learning to play racquetball and I’m hiking when I can. Activity comes easy to me now, and I’m grateful it has become a habit. But I think thath in order to continue my lifelong journey toward being as healthy as I can, I need to start blogging and food journaling again. These two things have consistently been the biggest help in my weight loss journey; it’s no wonder I gained weight when I stopped doing them.
All these years later, I’m still so grateful that sparkpeople helped me learn that I won’t benefit from beating myself up. So instead, I’m facing reality, making a plan, and moving forward with that plan. I will check in here weekly to evaluate my progress. Onward and upward!