My vision board and related thoughts

I've got a vision board hanging on the wall, right next to the computer. On it is a picture I cut out of a magazine, of a slender old woman with long, glorious, silver hair. She's laughing. I look at her every day, along with other things I want to manifest in my life.

You know that feeling, when something inside of you goes 'click', and you know that some unknown and unseen force has launched you on a journey that you've been planning, and dreading, and doubting you would ever actually be able to embark upon, much less complete, on your own? Yeah, that 'click'. I felt it the last time I quit smoking, and it's been two years now. And I felt it again this spring, and oh damn, I was so relieved, because I'd been waiting for it, and I'd been praying for it, and I'd been despairing of ever finding myself in that special place again.

It's going to happen. I know it like I know my name. I feel like a new bride, the day after the wedding.

I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to feel embarrassed anymore when I look in the mirror. I don't want to feel "less than" for even one more day. I don't want the fear of not seeing seventy. I have been glorious, damn it, and that glorious spit-in-your-eye woman still lives inside of me, and I'm going to let her out again. And I dare anybody or anything to get in my way.

So, how am I going to do this? The only way I can - with structure and accountability. I am going to measure and record everything I eat, and I am going to be ruthlessly honest with myself. I am going to forego coffee in favor of green and white tea. I'm going to drink more water. I am going to move, and stretch my limits a bit more every day. And I am going to ROCK!!!!