Learning New "Tricks"
Friday, May 01, 2015
so I am proud to say that I have evaded every obstacle and every rogue temptation that has come along. I went shopping (twice) and spent WAY too much money. My already high bill was augmented by purchasing the ingredients for a yummy 3 Bean Veggie Chili which I'm making in the slow cooker for a pot luck supper tomorrow. The reason I'm going to so much trouble and not just buying soda or some cookies is because I NEED to have something there to eat myself....something that I know I can have and that will help me to avoid all the booby traps those "other" foods are hiding. I think I may also make some black bean brownies or some avocado/almond/cocoa/sweetener pudding to bring with me so that I do not feel deprived of dessert.
A problem that is closer at hand is that I am hungry....I didn't have lunch. and now it's 3:45 and soon will be facing dinner prep.. Also Queen Mayo is sprawled out on my legs and I would hate to displace her. At any rate...hunger pains are merely detox discomfort and must be faced, endured and overcome if I ever hope to be free of food addictions. I'd learned years ago in my anorexic years that these stomach pains only last for a few minutes and will return in twenty minutes. So if you can endure them for a bit, they will eventually dissipate. And in time, the body will be rid of toxins and toxic hunger will disappear along with it. And when that happens you find you will be so motivated not to "go back there again" that you will be truly reluctant to ingest toxic foods.
I am finding that I am getting better at handling temptation. I brought my husband an apple cinnamon muffin that he didn't want and it's been sitting on the counter, and I didn't even take a taste. Today at a cafe for breakfast I ordered two whole wheat pancakes and then a fruit cup. I dumped the contents of the fruit cup over my pancakes and ate them that way...without butter. it was delicious.
Tomorrow we are having a pot luck dinner at church. I decided to make a big pot of the three bean veggie chili I had made for myself last week. I'm making it so that I will definitely have something to eat that is not completely off my diet available to me. I am also going to make some black bean brownies and bring one or two with me so that I am not deprived of those mountains of goodies.
Exercise is still very tough. I can do counter pushups and a couple of squats...I can do some arm exercises with 5 lb weights ...my ankles are making things miserable and difficult to find things that I can do and my core muscles have really been attacked by this steroid myopathy. my MD appt for this past Thursday (oh yes, yesterday !!) was changed due to an emergency. He is going to be away until the 12th and I have an appointment with him for the 13th. I'm going to ask him to get me off of the steroids. I am very scared because I know I have a whole bunch of new "hot spots" of pain and without the steroids pain and being Short of Breath (SOB) will once again escalate and life will quickly be miserable. But I do not want to end up in a wheelchair from the steroid myopathy either and I know there is a good chance of that happening if we don't nip it in the bud now.
I've decided to wait a month before I weigh myself again. The piddly games of gain a pound lose a pound are driving me nuts. I need to see the big picture....and I do expect that after a month of behaving myself, there should be some serious weight loss. What a happy day that will be!! I can hardly wait. So on June 1st check in with me and see whether or not this way of eating ROCKS and causes rapid weight loss that is permanent for as long as I continue to "Eat to Live"