Time to restart the program!
Sunday, May 17, 2015
My first days on Spark People were so successful, I was really proud of myself. But some time in the past month or so life seems to have gotten in the way. I've stopped tracking my foods, I haven't cooked a decent meal in over a week, and I have really cut back on exercising. And I don't even have any kind of excuse.
It really hit me yesterday when I was getting ready to go out. A few people from my high school organized a "get together" - nothing more than sending out a time and place for any and all former classmates to come together and socialize. No small project when you consider my graduating class was over 800 seniors! I have passed on each of the previous events thinking that I've lived many years without these people in my life, why change. But we've had a couple of recent deaths of former classmates which made me realize that it might be important to see some people while I still can.
But back to the point - first, I thought I had lost enough weight to wear a pair of pants that had been in my closet for years and years, only to find that while I could put them on there's no way I would leave the house wearing them! Way too tight. Which got me in front of the mirror, something I rarely do, and I realized I hadn't been going to these events because I was so unhappy with how I looked. In High School I was the slender girl - someone who could eat whatever because I burned it all off. I was a dancer and I often performed - so many people knew who I was because of that. But I went - and I am so glad that I did. It was wonderful to reconnect with old friends and apparently we had all changed.
But one thing about last night that I will take with me - it is really important for me to be the person I feel I am inside, and that is a person who can enjoy life and be active. Which means I still have some work to do!
So I've restarted my Spark Coach 90 day program. I know what to expect, and I know what to do - I just need to find the motivation to do it! And today is a perfect day to start.