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From the Murky Depths....

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

As I had reported in my last post, I've been floundering badly. BADLY---as in large soft serve cone with sprinkles....and then eggplant parm on a roll for lunch....an Frosted Flakes for dinner. No folks. It doesn't get much worse than that.

And you know what? I'm GLAD.
Why? BECAUSE I gave myself a rude awakening. And that was this: ALL THIS WORK I've done, preparing good-for-me meals can go right down the pot with very very little effort.

And that would be just sad.

So when I stared my depravity in the face and it showed it's true colors I got MAD.
(ok : Angry!!)
I am NOT GOING TO LET YOU (ME) DO THIS TO YOURSELF AGAIN!! What's it gonna be? "Sick, Fat, and Nearly Dead"? Or me looking the way I want to look and feeling the terrific "YAY YOU!!!" that I would fully deserve when I look into that mirror and can see that there are some bones hiding in this mess....and some muscles too!!

You know what I did?
After a healthy breakfast, I did about 20 minutes of exercise in my bedroom....and it felt..... GOOD!!

Today I go to meet a new rheumatologist. My last one had a stroke and they don't know if he is going to return to practice. I am FINALLY off of the steroids. I cut the taper time down because I was having absolutely no trouble withdrawing. I've been off of them for three days and I feel fine. i don't know when the pain is going to come back and slam me to the mat but I'm sure it will. I'm having random stabbing pains now but nothing unbearable.

So from now on I'm going to plan the menus for the day....so that I'm prepared...not coming up on 5:30 and then heading for the bowl of cereal because I'm not ready to cook anything.

Some of the EAt to LiVE recipes are a bit labor intensive....and I cannot stand up for long enough to prepare them. So I'm looking for ease of preparation... but with enough interest to be appealing. The other thing is I need to have my sauces prepared at all times. My salad dressing and also the sauce I like to pour over vegges (Ginger/Tahini). I bought two lovely sauce holder/mixer bottles ...they come with a metal wire spiral that you put inside and when you need to shake the sause up after it sitting for a while, it does a great job.(you can get those at Bed BAth and Beyond for $7.99) ....If you are into protein powder, that would be an awesome container for your shake.

So anyway. I did not, nor will not weigh myself after this week's debacle. I'm going to wait a few weeks --a few weeks of being faithful to the food plan and a few weeks of doing some kind of exercise daily....even if it is just going up and down the basement stairs a couple of times. Because of the myopathy I'm currently struggling with, it doesn't take much to completely wear me out....and for my muscles to be quivering bowls of Jell-0.

So . Pick yourself up.
Dust yourself off.
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    Great job getting right back into it and not letting discouragement overtake you. You have the perfect attitude. Sometimes that rude awakening is what we need. We see our old habits creep back in so easily and I love that you are not letting them hang around! What is done is done, but the great thing is you see it and are aware of it so you could make the changes you need. It would have been easy to give up, but you had the strength to keep going! Sometimes we have to remember why we started and how it feels to be back there in order to keep going. Just a little detour and now you are back on the road to your goals ~ Great job!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1944 days ago
    Pick yourself up. Brush yourself off & start all over again. emoticon
    1944 days ago
    This is a great blog and I think a lot of us go through this - you are doing great!
    1944 days ago
    Oh, thank you! I really need to dust myself off today! I have been stuck inside because of constant headaches. The bright sunlight is a huge trigger for them. I was going crazy with cabin fever, so last night I took the recycling to the bins and went shopping after dark. I mostly did okay, but . . . I bought a bag of potato chips. Not a little bag. A big bag.I don't usually do that because then I eat too many. So, I ate most of them. That set off my IBS, and I was unable to go to bed until 5:45 this morning. Ack!

    I won't try to address ALL of my food addictions at once because I know that does not work. But I AM going to go and pour the rest of those potato chips directly into the kitchen trash. And I do not plan to buy any more!

    You are in my prayers. My challenges are different from yours, but I know what it is to be challenged. We can prevail!

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    1944 days ago
    Glad you're back on track with a plan. It sure feels better, doesn't it?
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  • KALLIE1958AR
    Awesome we can do this :)
    1945 days ago
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