As I had reported in my last post, I've been floundering badly. BADLY---as in large soft serve cone with sprinkles....and then eggplant parm on a roll for lunch....an Frosted Flakes for dinner. No folks. It doesn't get much worse than that.
And you know what? I'm GLAD.
Why? BECAUSE I gave myself a rude awakening. And that was this: ALL THIS WORK I've done, preparing good-for-me meals can go right down the pot with very very little effort.
And that would be just sad.
So when I stared my depravity in the face and it showed it's true colors I got MAD.
(ok : Angry!!)
I am NOT GOING TO LET YOU (ME) DO THIS TO YOURSELF AGAIN!! What's it gonna be? "Sick, Fat, and Nearly Dead"? Or me looking the way I want to look and feeling the terrific "YAY YOU!!!" that I would fully deserve when I look into that mirror and can see that there are some bones hiding in this mess....and some muscles too!!
You know what I did?
After a healthy breakfast, I did about 20 minutes of exercise in my bedroom....and it felt..... GOOD!!
Today I go to meet a new rheumatologist. My last one had a stroke and they don't know if he is going to return to practice. I am FINALLY off of the steroids. I cut the taper time down because I was having absolutely no trouble withdrawing. I've been off of them for three days and I feel fine. i don't know when the pain is going to come back and slam me to the mat but I'm sure it will. I'm having random stabbing pains now but nothing unbearable.
So from now on I'm going to plan the menus for the day....so that I'm prepared...not coming up on 5:30 and then heading for the bowl of cereal because I'm not ready to cook anything.
Some of the EAt to LiVE recipes are a bit labor intensive....and I cannot stand up for long enough to prepare them. So I'm looking for ease of preparation... but with enough interest to be appealing. The other thing is I need to have my sauces prepared at all times. My salad dressing and also the sauce I like to pour over vegges (Ginger/Tahini). I bought two lovely sauce holder/mixer bottles ...they come with a metal wire spiral that you put inside and when you need to shake the sause up after it sitting for a while, it does a great job.(you can get those at Bed BAth and Beyond for $7.99) ....If you are into protein powder, that would be an awesome container for your shake.
So anyway. I did not, nor will not weigh myself after this week's debacle. I'm going to wait a few weeks --a few weeks of being faithful to the food plan and a few weeks of doing some kind of exercise daily....even if it is just going up and down the basement stairs a couple of times. Because of the myopathy I'm currently struggling with, it doesn't take much to completely wear me out....and for my muscles to be quivering bowls of Jell-0.
So . Pick yourself up.
Dust yourself off.
And GET YOUR GAME ON!