Examining my motivators
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
I'm learning about myself as I go along. These multiple daily walks with Tito the Wonder Dog have led me to parts of the neighborhood that I haven't explored in the last thirteen years, other than on my bike.
Now, enter those FitBit daily step challenges. I'm a competitive SOB. And the prospect of coming in dead last all but makes me break out in hives. Never even mind anymore that I'm doing something good and something healthy for myself. I'm using that poor little overtaxed terrier as a tool to WIN, by God, no matter what it takes.
We were about a year and a half into our mid-afternoon walk today when the choice came to turn left and knock off another four blocks or head home. God help me, I checked the FitBit app on my phone to check my standings. But then I looked down at Tito. He was panting like he'd just run a marathon. And I was miserable too, wanting nothing more than a cold glass of water. I did something then that was completely contrary to my nature. We headed for home.
There will be one or two more walks today, and I'll meet my step goals. And, no matter where I am in the standings, I will win. Obsessiveness can be a dangerous thing if it's unexamined. We need to be damned sure that the right things are motivating us, and continue to be self-aware every step of the way.