Joss Stone says "Im taking it back!"
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
Yesterday I was having a calorie problem not enough of and not enough carbs; my husband needed to fuel up and thought a snickers will do and I added it to my food tracker and thought yup that will hit the spot. I then stopped myself because is that really the right type of food? the right type of calories? carbs? it is processed and what will that do to my system. On top of trying to lose weight I am trying to get a handle on Severe Rheumatoid Arthritis. I haven't shared this with my family but because of the RA I am having trouble seeing I am worried I am losing my eye sight everything is foggy and has been for awhile now and I noticed is worse while I am in a flare.
The day before yesterday I was stressed and wow was really craving something processed. I was in the right zone on all my calories, carbs, etc. and over powering hungry my stress was high my RA flare was horrible and my mind kept thinking give me comfort give me comfort food. I asked my husband to take me to subway and I was too ill to get out of the car myself and go in so I told him what to get. He went inside and then came back out because he had forgotten something. I said, "don't go back in there! I don't need Subway! It is processed. I need to ignore this feeling because it is not going to make me feel better it will actually make me feel worse. Take me home; I am a food addict. Because of this I have RA. I went home and today I am proud of myself for controlling my appetite.
BTW I am 38 years old and for the last 7 years I have been ill; I am too young to die from a disease. I will not let this me the end of my story. I will overcome my health and take back my life.