Sunday, July 19, 2015
I just completed 24 days in the hospital. In the hospital ---on tons of IV steroids--my appetite was mammoth. I would eat a full plate of food---as much as I could get them to send me---and would be hungry before I took the last bite. I'm the only person I know who can be hungry WHILE EATING. HOwever, despite the migration of fat to my face and to my middle (another gift of steroids) ..my clothes felt loose. Sure enough, when I got home I'd actually lost a pound. ( a POUND??? SO WHAT?)..If you've ever been on steroids then you know this is no small accomplishment. However. The story is not yet ended. I've gained two pounds since being home. Last night I ate 3 whole wheat bagels. And this morning am feeling sick and tired. FAT, SICK and NEARLY DEAD. (a movie....look it up on Netflix and watch it)
Since I've been home I've fallen 4 times. On the second time we had to call 911...DH could not get me off of the floor and try as I might, I could not get up...I strained every muscle in my thighs and am in pain from that now. Last night I fell when no one was home. I was FURIOUS and somehow managed by the grace of God to get myself tummy down on my bed and then was able to get my feet under me. Living like this: from fall to fall, is frightening. I am supposed to start PT this coming week....and getting up off of the floor has got to have priority.
And now comes the hard part. I need to strictly enforce portion control of some foods eliminate other foods entirely.....and PIG OUT on other foods..(High in fiber: raw veggies, greens, mushrooms, beans.. onions. nuts and seeds Now there is so much more at stake. I have gotten insulin depedent , steroid induced diabetes. My blood sugars - with insulin-- have been in the 300=400 range which is not good. My husband's reading last ngiht was in the 500's.....so he is in the midst of his own battle. He should have been on insulin years ago--but refused to cooperate.
Also while in the hospital I learned that I have a fatty liver, which if not attended to can lead to liver cancer or cirrhosis I always thought I ate healthfully--and compared to a lot of my friends-- I DID. But I have not eaten radically enough to forestall these medical crises.
Yesterday I purchased another Dr Joel Fuhrman book: The End of Diabetes.
Dr Fuhrman has had unprecedented success at CURING (as opposed to managing) diabetes. Impossibe? Pictures don't lie...These people have reduced their weights by at least half.
As for me?
No more lies to myself.
NO more excuses for myself
I have all the tools i need to successfully combat this illness...I just need to recognize how seroius a threat this is to my health Both conditions are completely fixable.