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A Place I've Never Been

Monday, August 03, 2015

When I was downsized from my long time position at work seven years ago, a new phase of life started. I had never been a stay-at-home person. I had no habits associated with spending days at home. I determined to start the journey as I meant to go on, with healthy habits. I ate well. I exercised. I lost pounds and inches. I felt good.
It wasn't always easy. I was my father's full time caregiver until he passed away four years later. I slowly got off track and regained.
I have not learned to maintain as I lose. Maintenance is important NOW, not just when we reach goal and officially enter the magical maintenance phase. Some people would say maintenance is harder than losing the weight. As INDYGIRL says: Lose, maintain, don't regain.

Last week I had surgery on Monday. I was scheduled to follow up with the doctor two weeks later but her office called me to come in on Friday. The doctor said it was cancer. Her office scheduled a CT scan and MRI next week. On August 12 I will see the oncologist who will be taking over this phase of care.

This is a place I've never been. I have no habits associated with this journey. It is a new beginning.
My body has been fighting everything I put it through for so long. I want to be as healthy as I can and work with my body.

Sleep deprivation has been a way of life for me since major surgery in 2004. I am a night owl. I sleep in 2 to 4 hour increments because of discomfort or pain. This year I started making myself stay in bed if I wasn't in pain, even when wide awake.
In 2013 I was told I need to get my feet up everyday so I added a much needed nap on most days.
Since the surgery a week ago, I've been going to bed before midnight and taking naps whenever I felt tired.
My younger sister, who is fighting rectal cancer, gave me this advice: Rest is the best thing you can do for yourself now. Don't let anyone or anything stop you from sleeping when you are tired.

With the change in sleep has come change in eating. Night time munching is eliminated if I am sleeping! In place of it, I am now ready for a light breakfast in the morning.
I am trying to employ all the good things I have learned about healthy eating. I have not been successful at staying truly low carb (which is my eating preference), but I am eating smaller amounts and stopping sooner. I am not giving in to mindless eating while I search the cupboard or refrigerator for something more satisfying. I know I will eat again in a few hours at the next meal time.

Sayonara to the pounds and inches. They are moving in the right direction again.
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  • no profile photo CD4212235
    emoticon and prayers. Your sister right, rest as you need it. Feeling tired will be par for the course, but you have a good outlook on life and don't sit around for it to be lived, you live it. God bless you and your sister.

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    1929 days ago
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    1933 days ago
    I'm sending you BIG wishes of health, happiness and love! You will overcome this cancer by eating REAL food, staying away from sugar which actually feeds cancer and resting whenever and how ever much you need. It is the body's time to heal itself.

    Also check out my wonderful friend Simplelifeforreal who overcame a very nasty form of cancer. She is an inspiration and will give you wonderful helpful advise if and when you need it.

    Big, big hugs to you my friend! emoticon emoticon
    1937 days ago
  • MREE777
    You are always an inspiration Annie! I thank God He put you in my life. You are taking a wise approach and your sister's advice is EXCELLENT!!! Sleep is the body's natural way to heal.
    1943 days ago
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    emoticon Keeping you in my prayers.
    1945 days ago
    Prayers and love and hugs. Sorry to hear of your recent diagnosis. Glad that you are taking a positive approach to this new journey. You are an inspiration. Every day is a new beginning. I love what you say about searching the fridge and cupboards. emoticon
    1947 days ago
    You are in my Prayer,
    1949 days ago
    Hugs, prayers and blessings.
    1949 days ago
    All the best Annie -- God Bless
    1949 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15235460
    I am so sorry to hear of your recent diagnosis, will be thinking of you , and wishing you only good things as you begin this battle/ adventure!
    1949 days ago
    Annie I am so sorry to hear you will be going through all this, you will be in my thoughts and prayers!

    1949 days ago
    My positive thoughts and prayers are with you as you begin your battle with cancer.
    1949 days ago
    I have sleep issues myself and am a night owl. Started a new therapy 2 weeks ago for this. Glad to see yours is working for you. My therapist is telling me to try and go with the nightowl n change the hours of sleep. Experiment. Slept too long
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