A Place I've Never Been
Monday, August 03, 2015
When I was downsized from my long time position at work seven years ago, a new phase of life started. I had never been a stay-at-home person. I had no habits associated with spending days at home. I determined to start the journey as I meant to go on, with healthy habits. I ate well. I exercised. I lost pounds and inches. I felt good.
It wasn't always easy. I was my father's full time caregiver until he passed away four years later. I slowly got off track and regained.
I have not learned to maintain as I lose. Maintenance is important NOW, not just when we reach goal and officially enter the magical maintenance phase. Some people would say maintenance is harder than losing the weight. As INDYGIRL says: Lose, maintain, don't regain.
Last week I had surgery on Monday. I was scheduled to follow up with the doctor two weeks later but her office called me to come in on Friday. The doctor said it was cancer. Her office scheduled a CT scan and MRI next week. On August 12 I will see the oncologist who will be taking over this phase of care.
This is a place I've never been. I have no habits associated with this journey. It is a new beginning.
My body has been fighting everything I put it through for so long. I want to be as healthy as I can and work with my body.
Sleep deprivation has been a way of life for me since major surgery in 2004. I am a night owl. I sleep in 2 to 4 hour increments because of discomfort or pain. This year I started making myself stay in bed if I wasn't in pain, even when wide awake.
In 2013 I was told I need to get my feet up everyday so I added a much needed nap on most days.
Since the surgery a week ago, I've been going to bed before midnight and taking naps whenever I felt tired.
My younger sister, who is fighting rectal cancer, gave me this advice: Rest is the best thing you can do for yourself now. Don't let anyone or anything stop you from sleeping when you are tired.
With the change in sleep has come change in eating. Night time munching is eliminated if I am sleeping! In place of it, I am now ready for a light breakfast in the morning.
I am trying to employ all the good things I have learned about healthy eating. I have not been successful at staying truly low carb (which is my eating preference), but I am eating smaller amounts and stopping sooner. I am not giving in to mindless eating while I search the cupboard or refrigerator for something more satisfying. I know I will eat again in a few hours at the next meal time.
Sayonara to the pounds and inches. They are moving in the right direction again.