Today's weight: 249
I'm not surprised that I'm up a little today, I know I'll get it back down. You should have heard me when I weighed yesterday at 248. I was like
and surprised DH with it being so loud. I could not help it, I was so happy! That makes 9 pounds and 1 inch off my waist and hips!
I wrote a thank you letter to my pastor. I sent it on FB, so I hope he gets it. I didn't know his email address till after I sent it. The sermon series he's doing is called "Labels". It's about the labels we put on ourselves and the labels God gives us. And let me tell you, I have given myself a lot of negative labels.
Between the sermon series, my therapy and the summer challenge team, I've really been changing the way I think of myself. One of the labels I had given myself, the one that was weighing the heaviest on me was Unable. I believed myself Unable... of anything and everything. Pair that with the labels from having anxiety and panic attacks and life gets hard. I’ll be honest when I saw what the sermon was on, I wanted to leave. I didn’t want to face those labels I had given myself, didn’t want to drag them out into the light. But I stayed and listened.
Hearing the labels that God has given me met with quite a bit of resistance at first (and it still does, I’ll admit). But knowing that God thinks of me as wanted and loved and redeemed softened my heart and made me really look at the labels I have placed on my heart. They directly contradict what God’s labels say about me. And I thought, maybe, just maybe, I’m wrong.
Those maybes may not seem like much, but to me, it is a lot.
What if I am able? I’ve been through so much I feel weak and have labeled myself so. But I’m seeing now that I’m not weak. I made it through those things and am still here, a little tattered and torn, but I’m still here. Maybe I really am strong. What if I labeled myself as strong?
Didn't mean to go off on a tangent like that, but it's what's been on my mind a lot.
Had a great workout yesterday. I do 'free step' step aerobics on my WiiFit. I have a riser that makes it the size of a real step aerobics step, but for now I'm not using it. I'm too out of shape to! But what I have done is changed what I listen to and how I step. I started listening to Deadmou5 and Daft Punk and going to the beat of the music instead of following the Wii. It is quite a workout, let me tell you! My calves are usually screaming at me and I have to tone it down so they can get a rest. I guess you could call it intervals. I'll step slow till my calves have calmed down and then get right back to stepping to the beat (which is usually very fast). Love it!
Today I'm going to
Go grocery shopping
work on cleaning the garage
Clean the kitchen
Organize toys in living room