I was surfing Spark today for my daily dose of happy. I came across a Sparker who lost 100 pounds on Spark...and regained. I came across another similar story by another Sparker. Hmmmm....
I have been on Spark a long time. I shoulda been at my goal weight by now. If I had stayed the course, I coulda been at goal weight. If I had hung on to all those hard-won losses, I woulda been at goal weight.
One of the Sparkers who regained blogged about how long it would take to reach her goal. She wondered if others figured out how long it would take if they lose 1 or 2 pounds a week. Most of us have done that. Spark has a tool to calculate it for us.
I've kept a running journal of what I should weigh at the end of each month to reach a certain goal. Some months I've made that goal. Some months I haven't.
I found this picture on the page of a Sparker who was celebrating a milestone she had worked so hard for.
It reminded me of a time when I put one foot on the scale and added pressure to see what my goal weight looked like. Just checking to be sure that number really existed on my scale. I must have seen it on my way up but I can't remember it. This time it would be cause for huge celebration.
Since the cancer diagnosis, people have reacted in different ways. One couldn't believe I wasn't freaking out. A number of people want to wrap me in cotton wool. Nothing has changed yet, except that I now know something I didn't know before.
It's a waiting time now. I've seen the oncologist who thinks surgery is the best way to go. He wants me to see another surgeon who will do a hernia repair at the same time. The oncologist office will call me to schedule an information meeting. Waiting...
My sister and I talk most days. She needs someone to cry with and pray together. I wish she lived here. She has been in pain for months. She finished chemo and radiation which shrunk the tumor. Now she has to heal for surgery to remove it. It's been very complicated and she's been in and out of the hospital.
I was glad I was still able to go up north earlier this month. I gained a little weight as I usually do because of the change in eating, and couldn't seem to get back on track when I got home. Down 3 pounds today so I'm celebrating. I will hang on to that loss and keep moving in the right direction.