Follow up from Most Popular Blog
Friday, September 11, 2015
I just re-read the blogpost that was voted most motivational blog post for 1/29/15. As usual I can talk a good talk and write a good post....but can i really make right choices consistently?
I just spent a month in the hospital for respiratory issues and was on a TON of IV steroids.....needless to say my belly ballooned and my neck had quadruplets. Even so, when I got home I had lost one pound rather than gaining 30. But--here's the rub--once I was set loose away from the hospital's portion limiting...I gained 7 pounds rapidly....and then lost them....and then gained 5 back. My chin is beginning to get back in the back seat where it belongs. That means the steroids are slowly leaving my body ( I still have to take 5 mg of Medrol daily)
But I am determined. I have been eating healthfully and I have learned this lesson "Never EVER buy ciabatta rolls again!" I've been following the Eat to Live principles (Google Dr Joel Fuhrman) ...So why am Ii writing this blog?
1) to confess that I did not follow through with all of my resolves in that most popular post.
2) To reignite my desire to be thin. but more so; to be healthy. Everyone on Fuhrmans sites say that they only began to really lose weight when they stopped focusing on weight and started to pursue good health. I was recently diagnosed with a fatty liver. That is a reversible warning sign that could turn lethal if not heeded. Also I had steroid induced diabetes and was on insulin for a month or so. I do believe that had my weight been where it should have been, my blood sugars would NOT have been in the 500's. And I am taking 5 different blood pressure meds and 2 diuretics. That is another potentially lethal thing that really is in my control should I begin to exercise my desire to eat right and lose weight.
3) I know I am not able to do much exercise. My breathing still is far from healthy and I am battling Steroid Myopathy which is when steroids weaken and destroy muscle. But I CAN do the exercises my PT people had me doing. And when those become easy I know other ones I can work on.
4) I'm going to allow myself to dream. Rather than thinking about my fearsome future--I am going to imagine myself fit and thin.....and able to do things I haven't done in years. Visualization is supposed to be a very powerful tool---one that atheletes employ to help them win games.
5) Lastly I would love to give away some of my nicer "fat clothes" and go shopping for a whole new size.