Why Am I Afraid to Join the Y?
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Last week I took advantage of a promotional our local YMCA is offering during their anniversary month of September. I had a free membership for a week and LOVED it! Each class was fun and I felt amazing after working out. I tried classes that I knew would be challenging but wanted to check them out "just because". The pool, the equipment, and most importantly the people were wonderful.
So why am I so hesitant to join? In the early 90s I joined a gym and it was traumatic. I don't want to go into details but trust me, they should have never been in business (but they still are!). I know the fitness industry has changed in the past twenty years. I had a week long positive experience at the Y. So, why am I letting the past hold me back?
I just need to jump in feet first, deep end of the pool! I can do it! I want to be braver. I think I'm a scaredy cat!
Every experience is a new one and I should let it happen on it's own, without worrying about the past, about things that I can't change. When you are grossly obese the world can be cruel. It can mess with your mind even when you get older, wiser, braver.
I had to get some of that out. Ramble a bit. Let my scary thoughts out. They lose most of their power in the daylight.
Okay. I'm ready to join the Y....I think, mostly I think I can. I want to be brave. I will be brave.