Stepping out of my comfort zone!
Wednesday, December 09, 2015
I'd like to say that I did something really great like give a speech (never did feel comfortable with public speaking) or joined a gym (still working up to that one) or even signed up for a Pilates class. Those would all be out of my comfort zone.
What I did was personally invite my ex-husband, father of my 5 children, to join us for our family celebration. He is recently divorced from his 3rd wife after me and living alone in the country somewhere about 150 miles from my home, the home he left 22 years ago because he could no longer deal with me and/or our 5 children who were all teenagers at that time.
Two of my children called me because they had received an email from him asking about Christmas - another first for him. He didn't want anyone to worry about him even though he'd be alone for Christmas. So I reached out. No one should be alone on Christmas.
There were many years that I had no contact with him at all. There was no reason to - our children were old enough to connect with him if they wanted to. He wasn't very reliable, often would forget to show up when he promised to take care of something. And if he did show up he usually ended up yelling at me, which I figured he had no right to do because he left.
But somehow none of it matters any more. He's just a person and he did provide me with 5 really wonderful children. I have been married now to my current husband for just over 20 years. We've had challenges blending our families - which never really blended. But we've been happy with each other, we compliment each other. We now have 6 children together!
So I did something today I never ever thought I would. I reached out to someone who hurt me so many years ago, but I found it just simply doesn't hurt any more!