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Pushing the "buy" button. What's in my cart?

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Yep, that's me.
The grazer of aisles.
Peruser of pages.
Scroller to the "next" button.
Add it to the cart.

Yet I don't lay it on the cashiers line, push the "buy" button or click the checkout thingy. I read ALICIA63's blog, another Beck musing and realized I haven't bought into anything that might work. I told her the book (used) is in my cart, on an on-line store.

My Sparkversary is next week and I will have been here for, OMG, 6 years and I still haven't gotten a solid base for eating right.

While I appreciate the love from you all and the assurances that life sucks right now so I get a free pass, I STILL am 60 pounds overweight with a 33.1 BMI and it's not healthy. I have kept about 20 pounds off since I started and go back and forth on the next 10.

I bought into the exercise. It's my escape and relaxation. The hour in the pool is my zen and the 5 minutes I allow in the whirlpool is my warm up to get the heck out of there and back to business.

Next year, in a few days, I'm going to "buy into" what I need to get the scale to change. I've got to make that investment and quit "thinking" about it. I have to click the "next" button to get past my temptations!
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    1-8-2016 Update: emoticon weight emoticon 2# emoticon ! Happy Friday! Been working at computer all morning & now time to MOVE!!!!! emoticon emoticon BUSY WEEK! emoticon
    1843 days ago
  • NHES220
    Happy Sparkversary! I just hit my 3 years. This past year or so I've been maintaining with what I've lost and really just yo-yoing with a few lbs back and forth. But 2016 is the year I am recommitting to me and getting to my goal. I actually started on 12/26 getting back to my consistent workouts and low carb ways. You my friend have a lot going on in your life and I think of you often and wish the best for you! I'm cheering you on in cyberspace!

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  • GINA180847
    It has taken me 5 yrs. to go from 170 to 130. But I will stay there till the next downward journey. I know it is only 40 lbs. but hard won every one of them and I am darn proud of that. Too tired right now to think straight but you get my drift. Just don't gain any back and the rest will come off whenever.
    1855 days ago
    Don't give up maintaining that loss instead of gaining it back plus some is an accomplishment in itself. You've got this.
    1855 days ago
    Happy Sparkversary, upcoming. Clearly thoughts about your own next steps are formulating... did I ever mention it was a time of high stress that made me cling to the nutrition plan I picked for dear life? Sometimes it's your life raft... the one sane thing in an insane time!

    emoticon emoticon , I'm looking forward to what you come up with in terms of "clicking the buy button". There are so many good programs out there... picking ANY of them and committing to it works.

    When you do... do it for you... because you're worth it!
    1855 days ago
  • no profile photo INCH_BY_INCH
    emoticon Great analogy.
    1855 days ago
    What a great analogy.
    I know exactly what you mean.

    But here is a little reality check. Since six years ago, you got rid of twenty pounds and you didn't gain an extra twelve pounds from your six years ago weight. Most people do not remain the same weight, they put on a couple of pounds a year, and if you hadn't been doing what you have been doing right, you would have been the weight you started at 6 years ago and then at least 12 pounds more.

    You'd weigh at least 52 pounds more than you do now.

    Not giving you a free pass, Janet, just saying.
    You know how to get rid of it.
    You know how to keep it off.
    You don't want a free pass and you don't need one. You need good nutrition, fitness activity, rest, and emotional and spiritual support to see you through. All the things that nourish Janet. Put them in your checkout cart and push that button.
    1855 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/29/2015 6:00:53 PM
    i say whatever supports you and motivates you. Trying something different can often be the spark to get you moving. For others it's simply having a emoticon ready made plan. Beck offers that and a lot of tips. I already own a box of books and all the gadgets so, for me, it's focus and a kick in the butt.

    P.S. No snow yet...
    1855 days ago
    I'm in a similar position. I have been here since 2008. It's time for me to "S--t or get off of the pot". LOL. One of my hubby's crude expressions. Life with him is never dull. LOL.
    1855 days ago
    P.S. Love your a a analogy to window shopping. Am sure that most of us can relate.
    1856 days ago
    emoticon emoticon You have successfully kept off 10 pounds. You are not 10 pounds or more over the original weight. You are blessed to have found an activity that you enjoy that you regularly participate in. Determination helps. Clear picture of where you want to go and how you want your life to be is helpful. Using a variety of indicators of success each day/week. With clean eating and activity, weight will come off and stay off. Using the scale only leads to disappointment when it is actually fluid build up. You are not being selfish to focus on you. If you slip, go back on your plan. Hopefully you can find teams that can help here and perhaps a buddy there. Hoping 2016 is the year you break through and reach your goals.
    1856 days ago
    The best tool for me is the Sparkpeople food tracker. I track my food EVERY day. I pretty much eat whatever I want but stay within my ranges. I know I wouldn't stick with anything if I eliminated any food groups or could never have some of my favorites foods again. The problem with me is getting enough exercise or any exercise on some days. emoticon

    Let's make 2016 the year that things finally click into place and we do this thing.


    1856 days ago
    I bought the book right before my son passed away. Psychologically, I cannot fathom reading it at this point. If you spark mail your address I will mail it to you.
    1856 days ago
  • ALICIA363
    Glad you bought into the exercise!
    You give me far too much credit if you lump me into the walk the walk and talk the talk group. I still have plenty of room to become oppositional with Beck and dump it. I haven't pushed the buy button on her yet ... but I will push "Next" and see what comes up.
    1856 days ago
    Well, for sure my exercise time is MY TIME to recharge too. I get that for sure. The hand-to-mouth thingie -- working on that. Tracking every BLT (bite, lick, taste). Beck AND Thompson are both good sources of information. Like anything else, neither are one-size-fits-all. I take what I think applies/will work for me. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

    1856 days ago
    Dr. Judith S. Beck gets at the stuff between the ears from a "mental" perspective using cognitive behaviour therapy.

    And Susan Peirce Thompson looks at the science of leptin; when we eat flour and sugar-based foods, the excess insulin in our blood stream prevents the release of the leptin which tells us we've "had enough" and triggers cravings because our dopamine thins, reducing our ability to experience pleasure . . . meaning we need "more and more".

    Very interesting stuff in both of them.
    1856 days ago
    Never bought the book either, not even in a cart anywhere. Massive respect for the Beck bunch here, they walk the walk and talk the talk...essentially they are doing it! I have learned much from their musings and reviews, thanks go to ONEKIDSMOM for this. For me, it comes down to me! When I turned 50, I spun my world upside down once I really thought about the majority of my years behind me...and wanting quality in the years ahead. Ummm, right there with you at six years...55 pounds gone, oops except for the fivish that want me to revisit them on too many occasions. I have learned much about nutrition, macronutrients, fitness...and the role heart rate plays in much of this. Do you track...on Spark? I use other tools, MFP, I began with them loong before I tried to spark...a huge fan! For me seeing sodium, sugar, all fats...you name it, was what pushed me to eat to find balance and make tiny tweaks along the way...

    You do earn byes for your bucket of oh boy overflowing...and then some. I respect and applaud your need to take care of you. Do what feels right to you, it cannot be your lifestyle if ya can't live with the changes. Now get it girl...onward we go.
    1856 days ago
    Susan Pierce Thompson is available now. Fifi posted the link. Free. No reading required. Gets at addictive behaviors related to food.
    1856 days ago
  • no profile photo COSETTIE7
    I love reading diet books / they're all available for free at your local library! And you can indulge in reading every one of them - free!
    1856 days ago
    Seriously? The mobile app has a character limit to blog replies :x Anyway, everything I blow money on is worth it if I can bring myself to apply and use it. One more gadget, or membership will not get me off the sofa though. Only I can do that.
    1856 days ago
    Great analogy. If it's any consolation, we (me) frequent spenders are frought with self loathing at the thought of so many monetary investments and so little progress. I recently bought two Beck books and two others..all extremely helpful, if I can
    1856 days ago
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