New year..... New me
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
In the past few months I've joined a gym and have gotten a personal trainer. I was at 318.4lbs when I started. Now I'm at 305.1lbs. I've been hovering between 305 and 300. My goal right now is to get under 300. I know that this also requires me to make changes outside going to the gym 2 to 3 times a week. To help keep me fully accountable I'd like to share those changes and the progress I am making towards them.
Firstly, a little background on my eating habits... I've not always been a big eater. My appetite is most often described as non existent. For the longest time I was surviving on one meal every couple days. I just was never hungry. I have been struggling to change this for well over 6 years. This year I have been spending time on Kik and have made some new friends. One in particular has taken on a protective role with me and is helping me overcome obstacles I didn't realize were there. He has said that I need to eat one healthy meal a day and has me taking a picture of my meal before eating it so he can see. This has kept me accountable to him and my meal choices have been better. I don't eat out half as much as I did 2 months ago. Within the past month I've even started cooking meals before work. I'd have half before work and half at work on my break. I still struggle with eating every day but I only miss every now and then. He's also set a limit on soda for me. I know this probably sounds odd to many that I would allow someone to set limits that I know from online but with the connection I have with him its helping. He's told me he wants me to drink 88oz of water a day. If after that I still need something to drink, I may have 20oz of soda. In the past week I haven't met my water requirements but I also haven't had soda. I've been drinking hot tea more than anything. As for right now, those are 2 huge improvements for me that I plan to continue. I hope to be able to start working up to 2 meals a day.
Secondly, I need to focus more on cardio. I have a fitbit thanks to my mom and I've been lax on keeping up with it. Currently charging it up so that I can pick that up again. I need the challenges I think.
Thirdly, I plan to work on how much I personally tear myself down about my weight or not making progress fast enough. Its easy to tell someone else not to be hard on themselves but following your own advice is quite hard. I will openly say I am my worst critic and being anal retentive and ocd doesn't help that. I find the smallest of flaws and focus on them instead of opening my eyes and seeing the progress. Again this is where my friend is helping me. He has me saying a mantra every morning when I wake up, and every night before bed. Its helped. What helps even more is that for every negative thing I say about myself, I am to say or find 3 positive things concerning that negative statement. As positive things are hard to find when you constantly tear yourself down, I've cut back on saying the negative things. Still not a remedy to the problem but its a step.
I'd welcome any input from any of you on ways I could improve with the changes I wish to make in this new year.