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A Picture Says A Thousand Words

Saturday, January 02, 2016

If a picture says a thousand words, what does its say when you look at it and think "that person isn't me"?

I'm not sure when it happened, but at some point the person that I became wasn't the person that I see in my mind. People say that you need to accept yourself as you are, but I can't. When I look in the mirror, all I can think is "Who is that person?". I find myself filled with disgust and self-loathing. How can I expect someone else to love me if I can't even like myself?

This is my reality. Do I go on hating myself or do I try to do something about it? Do I stuff my self-hate which usually leads to more eating for comfort or do I finally say enough-is-enough?

Bottom line is: I am not okay with the woman in the mirror, but its not because of the weight she carries or how she looks. It is because deep down I know that I am not doing all that I can to be healthier; deep down I know that part of me has given up and accepted it.

There is still that other part of me telling me to get up and keep fighting. I have realized there is no perfect number or shape for me. I understand now that I won't be really happy with myself until I know that I am doing all that I can to be as close to my image in my mind as possible.

There is no perfect way to success. Being happy for me means getting up each day and trying to be a little better than the day before.
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    Thank you for the comments. I am always comparing myself to other people and coming up lacking. I know I shouldn't do that. I know the only person that I should compare myself is to myself. Its funny and just a little but sad how I have all of this knowledge and I still struggle with these things. Thanks for the support!
    1838 days ago
  • FITJEN48
    Oh girl! I read so much in this post. 1. You have a vision. 2. Loving yourself means not giving up. 3. You're a fighter. 4. One, daily small step ie. logging in or walking up & down the hallway 3x in a row could b a game changer. You've so got this!
    1840 days ago
    I know how you feel. I look back at pictures of myself and I look horrible to myself. I was always thinking about how other overweight persons should lose some weight, but never myself (until I see the truth in the pictures). Put the pictures away and don't try to live up to other people's weights or images. Start small and make a couple of changes. Take one day at a time -- keep your goals for a mere 24 hours and then do it again. Changes will happen faster than you can imagine. Do it for you and how you feel. The better image will follow.

    Happy New Year!

    Patti emoticon
    1840 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/2/2016 10:56:32 AM
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