Whoa was lost for a while, but here I am again

Goodness time flies, especially when you feel you have done nothing in it. Well no, I take that back, I managed to gain back my lost pounds :( Not so happy about that, but I am not going to sulk, it's my fault and no one else. I lost my passion for hiking and walking, for exercising and I let myself go with the flow of eating and more eating My anxiety was over the roof and I spent so many nights just crying out of desperation, yet I still did nothing. Listening to my favorite Christian radio station, they were talking about one word that you would like to use to change this next new year, and oh boy... so many came to my mind. I realized that I always set goals but never actually commit to anything. Yes I might start strong but then I just quit.
So my word for this year is commitment. I am committed to making it a better year, to loosing this weight, to loose my anxiety attacks, to have more faith, to trust God that there is something better for me, to my new job, to me.
I joined a 31day walking challenge on FB, and so far I have done 6 miles, not as much as I would want, but I am also doing other workouts too. I feel happy just getting up and doing it! I am still struggling with my anxiety attacks and letting go of controlling things I can't control. Slowly though I will get myself out of this huge hole I threw myself in and I know I can be victorious!