We spend a lot of money on food... A LOT. And we have a deep freeze full of food slowly getting freezer burned for us to find thinking that we had something in particular to cook. DH wants to cut our food budget in half. Yup, half. For starters we have to quit eating out. Okay. We can do that. I don't mind as it has gotten harder to find things I can eat that will keep me in my calorie range. But cutting our food budget that much is going to be hard, because I'm mostly eating veggies. I can't eat a lot of our old standby's for when we needed to penny pinch (pbj's, ramen, etc). But we want to do this permanently, not just for a few month. We spend too much on food and let too much of it go to waste. So for starters, we are going to go through and use what is in the deep freeze and cabinets or toss what is too old to eat and free up that space. We are going to eat a lot of stir fry's, because that is easy and cheap and I can cook it. And frozen veggies are now my best friends! Oh, we'll still get our regular freggies that I munch on all day and that the kids eat.
Still have this cold, so no working out this morning, but I found that I feel better in the afternoon, so maybe work out around 1, if it won't disrupt DH (he works from home on Wednesday). I was actually thinking I was over it yesterday afternoon. Then evening came and all the congestion came back with it.
Today is therapy, and I made such a big breakthrough last week, I hate to go empty-handed this week, but here I am. I have nothing to talk about. My mind has been on learning more about type 2 diabetes and then I got sick. Getting sick overrides my feelings sometimes. You know ask you how you feel when you're sick and usually the answer is: sick. I almost don't want to go, I don't want to get my therapist sick with this, 'cause I know she'll just work through it. Dedicated she is. Yes, I just said that in Yoda's voice. My husband would be proud, LOL. I don't think I'm contagious, I've had it for too long, but I could be wrong. I'll keep my distance and disinfect the couch before I leave (yes, she keeps the disinfectant in her office).
I am determined to keep eating healthy and in my calorie range. I'm so tired of being this overweight, of feeling unwell, of not getting to look how I feel inside. Tired of not being able to physically do the things that I used to, and in my head can still do, but my body cannot. Like run. I can run for a few seconds, short bursts, but in my head I'm still that athletic 26 year old that can run 3 miles (for the record, I dislike running, I've never enjoyed running, but I liked that I could run). Reality has been setting in a lot here recently and I think that is why I'm able to stick to my diet changes and such. Because I'm no longer that in my head, I'm seeing me for me and not what my head feels like I am. I'm a mess. And I need to fix me. I may never be that fit 26 year old again, but I'm sure I can make 36 look good if I just keep trying my best.