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Fog clearing, time to start over

Monday, February 15, 2016

It has been a long 3 years since my husband left. Those 3 years were spent with me in mourning for the loss of my 27-year marriage and the love I had for my spouse. For 3 years, I seemed to be paralyzed, not able to do much of anything--clean, take care of my property, or attempt socialization. The divorce was recently final (a few weeks before Christmas) and I know now there is no going back, no waking up and having this just be a bad nightmare. I am in the process of refinancing the property into my own name and starting to take my life back bit by bit--I was never much of a socializer by myself--always had my husband as my wing man. There are days I am content to just stay home and not face the world outside, however, for my son's sake and mine, I realize I must move forward. My son needs to become independent and so do I. It frightens me as I thought I had the rest of my life planned and knew what was going to happen. Not knowing what is right behind the next cornerstone of my life, is going to be scary.
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  • no profile photo CD16070360
    I can't imagine going through all of this. I am glad you are on sparks and finding people who have walked in your shoes.
    I just know that I have face other types of difficulties and God was around the corner waiting for me there.

    1796 days ago
    Yup, life tends to throw us curveballs, that's for sure.
    You'll be alright. Always one foot in front of the other. Best wishes.
    1796 days ago
  • VFJF2205
    It's easy to hide away and not put yourself out there, but you've taken that first step. It will get easier.
    1796 days ago
    I been there before. You made the first step. Every day gets better and easier. You can do this! We are here to help. Lean on us.
    1796 days ago
  • GEORGE815
    You will survive. Good luck with your new life.
    1796 days ago
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